WSPD

I don't necessarily know what my triggers are, but today was not a good day. I wanted to cry several times at work today and my mood clearly showed on my face. I just wanted to desparately escape.

How do you folks handle your emotions, negative thoughts, and erratic feelings while in a professional setting?

~ I took this photo in my yard. It sorta sums up most of my days - slightly off balance 😊

#WSPD my friend died by suicide last year, i still haven’t even started to process her going. I have has suicidal thoughts every day for the past five years - going between active and passive. Chronic suicidality is so tiring, and it feels like nobody understands unless you are mid attempt. I feel like I am beyond help. I am in #emdr to try and help me process some of my trauma but so far I am stuck trying to break through my #obsessivecompulsive personality barriers to get there. I am over half way through and I feel like I am wasting so much time. I feel so unbelievably lonely, nobody understands. I am in the same depth of #Depression as the day the trauma happened. I am so frustrated by my #Asexuality and sex-repulsion not understanding why i am petrified of anything remotely of that nature. I am never going to be able to live a life in this society or ever be a functioning adult in any sense. I am just so scared. I am being a horrible friend to all of my friends at the minute. I am not seeing anyone as i want to be cautious about #COVID19 and friends are messaging me but recieving messages stresses me out so much that i just ignore them all and hope they will disappear. Everyone must hate me for ghosting them. #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #PersonalityDisorders #SuicidalThoughts #Suicide

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day.

Just over two months ago my friend died by suicide.
I am really struggling with thoughts and ideation at the minute.
I am struggling with all of the quotes I am seeing as it reminds me of my friend.
The picture I have put up is really useful for me as my dogs are the most important thing in the whole world to me and the main reason I haven’t attempted or have stopped during an attempt over the past few years.
#MentalHealth #MentalIllness #Anxiety #AnxietyDisorders #Depression #PersonalityDisorders #Selfinjury #Selfharm