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Alcohol addiction

How do you define as a person who has an addiction to alcohol? Like am I an #Addict or just having a good time? How do I know when it’s #NotOK #Asking #addicton

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My name is Breyann Ketlyn.

It’s been a year since I first got sick and was rushed to the ER and sometimes now my pain is so unbearable I lay in bed not wanting to leave or go anywhere due to IBS and gallbladder inflammation 😔 i am also addicted to gravol (Dramamine) and the withdrawals of it just make being awake feel like hell for me...I try to wean myself off of it but it’s so hard for me to do it by myself , I tried going cold turkey and that didn’t work it just made the addiction worse, trying cbd worked but I ran out and I can’t even go anywhere because of my motion sickness ... I try and try so hard not to give up on my life but it’s so hard when every day and every hour I’m plagued with nauseousness and suicidal thoughts have been getting worse, this morning I stared at a rope crying wanting to tie it around my neck and just end it😔 doctors think I’m just like every other native who just wants more pills but I didn’t wanna become addicted to this... I feel so hopeless and weak... I used to go out for walks everyday now I’m always stuck in bed contemplating whether or not I should just kill myself ... talking with therapists doesn’t make me feel better anymore , I feel so lost.... I don’t feel like me anymore💔..
#SuicidalThoughts #addicton

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#MightyPoets : Forgiveness

Harsh rasps penetrate the silence
Grunt, Grunt, Grunt, Gasp
A possessive demon's lament,
Struggling to animate the carcass,
Squandering its last reserve of life
Reaching for a poison that isn't there.

The sickly pallor betrayed death's imminence,
Even before spying daggers of bone protruding beneath the skin,
Dry and cracked from drought
Flakes blow and fall like feathers
Her body already returning to dust...

For years they said she was past the point of no return...
Completely consumed...
Parasitcally possessed...
Mentally mangled...
Was now the time to concede?

Not a chance!
I pondered and paced
My baby cries for me
But still I remain
”Pass her off to the professionals ”
Plug her in and walk away
"Not a chance!"

A battle scarred Angel stirred,
Feeling my weariness
for the journey ahead,
"Go to her" "save her"
"She deserves our love!"
"Forsake her forsakers”

The Angel conjured memories in my mind,
Reminding me of why we fought this long,
Images of her, my blood;
Contrasted with images of the insidious imposter controlling her limbs

So with my flawed guardian by my side,
I resolved to help free her,
As I've tried for an eternity,
Failing and falling.
With a battle cry of despair
I launched into motion
A haze, a blur, lights and lies
Urgent voices and unsettling questions,
...Even more unsettling answers.

And then they whisked her away,
They spoke of an exorcism,
I contained my hope returning home,
Picking up the pieces while the smoke cleared...
When it finally subsided,
I could see her standing,
beautiful before me,
And my battle torn angel,
lay half buried behind me.

Having transferred his strength to me,
He'd been defenceless to the falling debris,
Depressed and depleted,
I sink beside him
We try and fail to clear the carnage
the struggle submerging us further.

Exhausted minds and bodies
Feebly pushing against the debris
I turn to cry out for help,help
But she was gone,
Her memory of our sacrifices
lobotomised during the treatment.
Burning a hole were her compassion and empathy once lived.

My heart gushes an internal haemorrhage of betrayal and sorrow
Always the saviour... Never the saved...
Can I give up now?
With the souls I've delayed from the reaper,
I'm sure he'll be pleased to receive me...

#MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #addicton #EatingDisorders #Suicide #PTSD #Recovery #ItsOkNotToBeOk #CheckInWithMe