Hi!
It's been a while since I've posted. I have a lot going on. I am working full-time at a psychiatric hospital teaching yoga therapy. I am also a full-time student through an online program, and also in a few yoga therapy courses right now on top of that. My fiancé just moved to Texas from Massachusetts, and I won't be joining him until after our wedding in June. We have a very short engagement so I am trying to plan a wedding in just 3 months, prepare to move to Texas, find a job down there, while in school and yoga therapy programs AND work full-time. I'm exhausted always and I am struggling to keep up. I should be working on homework right now but I am so stressed that I would rather do online shopping for my wedding but I really don't have extra funds, so I shouldn't be spending any money. I just start to shut down when I'm overwhelmed and I recognize that that is happening. I really want to go back to the gym for my physical and mental health, but I have no extra energy to do that - even though it'll probably help me in the long run.
Due to the stress, my OCD symptoms have come back in full-force and my ADHD is hindering me, too. My anxiety is so intense. Luckily, the depression isn't bad... I'm too anxious to be depressed... But I do miss my fiancé a lot. The stress is getting to us and causing us to argue a lot, which makes the distance feel even harder. I am so sad and feel like I'm breaking down but I can't let myself crumble because I have way too much going on, and way too much to take care of.
Thank you, for anyone still reading. I could use some encouragement, compassion, and prayers! I am choosing to trust in God moment-to-moment, constantly surrendering, but doubt and fear seems to torment me. I am so afraid of what could go wrong. All the fears and trauma that I thought I healed from seems to be resurfacing. Thoughts? Advice?
I appreciate this community. Thank you all.
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