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#Cancer Cancer has been the easiest thing in my life. Found by accident, surgery to remove it, no chemo no radiation no nothing. Follow up skins yearly for 5 years and I'm cured. Why can't rest of my life easy easy? The rest of my life just makes me want to die. Cannot stand the pain in my back and leg anymore. No one can give me any answers good or bad about how to make it more tolerable, now I'm peeing what seems like 24/7 in this nothing they can do about that either. Again cancer is easy. And I don't even know where to go about my daughter. Had surgery to remove my kidney 3 weeks ago no phone calls no visits no nothing. She doesn't care. Like I said cancer was easy!

#BipolarDisorder
I’m sitting outside alone freezing my butt off after yet another argument with my partner over one of my children. I haven’t seen my youngest son for three years and finally he is coming for a short visit next week. I am overwhelming thrilled, my children, along with my partner, are my sorce if joy, happiness and all that is right in my world, when I am around them the flood of love I feel calms the screeching in my mind and settles my emotions, although this heavenly reaction doesn’t last long, it is a temporary reprieve, an added bonus to being mother to the most amazing human beings. Knowing that my son has just gone through a breakup that has left him broken-hearted I wanted to make myself available to him for whatever he needed, so I arranged to take a couple of shifts off work, I work on a casual basis, so I would only miss out on nine hours all up. To my partner this is totally unacceptable, in her eyes I am not looking out for us by missing out on a few hours pay and I should put us first above all others. We are not struggling financially and I see the time spent with my son when he needs me outweighs the lost income. Now my mind is in overdrive trying to figure out which way to go. My son is so important to me and so is my partner and I don’t want to choose, I feel like either way I lean will be wrong.
Anyone have any advice to give me some clarity ?

I don't talk about everything I go through with my bipolar disorder for fear of appearing weak. Recently my dad confided in his friends about what he sees me going through. These men are not the type to keep things to them selves. I know they told their families. I know my parents are concerned but now I'm chronically embarrassed. On the outside I'm a pillar of strength, inside I'm actually fragile and childish. I'm anxious, what will everyone think of me now? In the past some people have reached out to me but it's never enough. I imagine the people who tried to help are perplexed right now. I'm quiet but my dad has spilled the beans. I just can't get over how embarrassed I am. I just want to hide. I want to talk to some friends of mine but I'll only burden and concern them with my abnormal need for clarification and reassurance. I feel my dads friends and their families are upset with me, I've complained about them in the past. Who knows what all my dad said about that. #Bipolar depression #Paranoia #Anxiety #Bipolar triggers # borderline personality disorder # insecurity # unresolved #resentment #Embarrassed #Family #are we friends? #am i a fair weather friend?

I've been on depression & anxiety meds for over 20 years, and was diagnosed with ADHD about 10 years ago. I take Lexapro, Wellbutrin, & Adderall & that makes a huge difference, but recently I've had several people mention that maybe I'm Bipolar. I have a Stepmom that is so I thought that I knew the signs. Has anyone been diagnosed with one thing but then found out that they had something else?

#Anxiety
to help #am I imaging this
I think I am in a terrible situation that I don’t know how to get out of or maybe I’m wrong!? someone’s prespective !? I love my husband I do but lately he goes from o to 110 and super angry for no reason. Let me start with I lost my dad a little over a year ago and he was my nest friend. I am an introvert,? so it’s hard to lose your beat friend. since then it seems my husband has been work. Fighting with me left and right over the littles year things and the. not bringing it up until days later. Really mean things to the point he told me he didn’t want to make love to me after a perfectly fine weekend. he said he only did it cause he felt he had to even though he made the moves. This broke my otherwise already broken and feeling of worthlessness heart. Then I have a bad back. getting 2nd surgery in early March. I feel last night and am home from work. He does not believe I fell. said I only want to stay home to be by him and told me if I talked to him he would leave. What did I do wrong to deserve this. also recently he fell on his head and has been out of work since middle of December and I have been there for him every step of the way... Sucks to not feel loved. I also cooked, cleaned and organized bee closet in the house this weekend. Did everything for kids and he did not need to do a thing. That’s our usual schedule with me working full time but really...... I don’t get it ... I’m lost, lonely and afraid to talk...