Hi, my name is Alyssa (25, she/her) “angelnumber777”. I'm here because I have one foot in the door of Recovery and one foot out. I am personally struggling a lot with Anorexia (on-going relapse), navigating through trauma anniversaries, insomnia, nightmares, flashbacks, and sensory sensitivities related to chronic PTSD, while grieving the loss of my still living father whose life I saved when he OD’d on heroin/fentanyl. I haven’t seen nor heard from my father since the night I took him to the hospital because I defied his side of the family by taking action when no one else would. The following day, I was outcasted, blacklisted, and blocked in every way possible. That was in August of 2021, and I have been struggling since then through 6 months of residential, 2 treatment centers, PHP, outpatient, relapses, and more. However, I am resilient, honest, empathetic, and I strive to heal and forgive (for myself, not those who have abused/neglected me). I am putting this out there because there is courage and strength in vulnerability. Ultimately, I do know what to do in order to step back into Recovery. What I feel is stuck and unable to progress towards my goals, despite some internal/external motivation. If you have read this far, thank you for listening to my heart speak.
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