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    Difference between AN B/P subtype and purging disorder?

    I'm curious to know the difference between the binge/purge subtype of anorexia versus purging disorder. I was diagnosed with the first one but I'm thinking purging disorder seems more accurate to me, but I'm not 100% sure. I can talk to my psychiatrist about it, I just want to hear other people's opinions too (especially from professionals on here that specialize in eating disorders and sufferers of these conditions). Thank you in advance and stay safe ❤ I know this stuff is hard. #Anorexia #ED #EatingDisorders #AnorexiaNervosa

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    Hitting Bottom With Everything

    Hi everyone. I’ve been having a really hard time for a LONG time, and I need to get things out of my head tonight. As some of you know I’ve been having health problems for quite awhile, plus dealing with the loss of my Dad and now my precious baby Roxie. Well, I dont know if Ive mentioned it very often, but I also have a problem with overeating. Ive been doing it mostly since Daddy passed in 2020, and it’s become really painful physically yet I can’t stop. I barely remember the past two weeks since my sweet dog-baby passed because I’ve just been binging, sleeping, and playing my video games. I haven’t gotten real help for my grief over Dad yet, and now I see how Im doing the same thing with losing little Rox—eating myself into a coma and still not getting the help I really need. I know that at this point I dont consciously want to atuff my feelings down—-I WANT to think of Daddy and Rox and cry, really feel this emotional pain. But this other part of me, a part that seems almost like another person, takes over and somehow Im driving to the store totally on impulse, getting God knows what, then coming home and eating it. I hate this so much. I feel totally out of control, lonely as hell, and in incredible pain—every day and every night. Im actually afraid that one day my body will just give out and I wont even get the chance to get my health back or have a good life. Its hard too because I know I need a counselor and OA. But I haven’t made an effort to do either one yet. I have gotten OA books and have been reading them, which is good. But I haven’t reached out to anyone yet. I think maybe deep down Im afraid I wont be able to get better, and I know that I need to deal with the overeating first or else other health problems related to my stomach and huge weight loss wont be able to be healed. Im so tired of being alone with all of these problems I just feel overwhelmed. I want my life back, myself back, my weight back, my health back, my parents back, and my lil Roxie back. All of the losses and health problems have lead me into overeating and not taking care of myself at all. And I wish so much that I had people in my f2f life like you guys who could help me. I wish I were surrounded by people who were loving, patient, encouraging, respectful, and able to help me with things. I dont like to envy others, but its been so long since I’ve had these kind of relationships (if ever) that when I see or read about people who have good relationships with spouses, siblings, living parents, close friends, etc I just want to cry. When I look around here I see myself and my remaining pets. Thats it. Im alone when Im sick, at appointments, grieving, rushing pets to appointments, having the house and its issues to cope with——all of it. And I literally can’t take it anymore. In just the past two days I’ve had the heater go out, got a flat tire, and learned that my electrical system might need serious work. Im on a really tight budget and trying to get on SSI or SS Disability, so I definitely cant afford these kinds of things. 😔

    I dont know. I just had to get this out tonight. It helps tremendously to write in my journal and get thjngs out that way, but sometimes I need to let other people know whats going on in my life. I appreciate you guys listening.

    #Grief #ED #Pets #Bipolar #ADD #ChronicPain #ChronicFatigue

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    Its getting bad again. Im losing control and i dont know what else to do. Im already getting help but im getting worse. #Anxiety #Depression #ED

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    Healing #EatingDisorder

    Hello!

    My name is Whitney and I am in recovery from atypical anorexia purging subtype. I am about to finish IOP next week and have made SO much progress in treatment this time going through each level of care. I wrote an article that is on my page about how I’ve started healing my relationship with my body during recovery, and if anyone is interested in finding ideas on things I have found helpful I would love for you to check it out. My goal in writing it was to just be able to help one person and I hope I’m able to do that. #EDrecovery #AnorexiaNervosa #AtypicalAnorexia #ED #MentalHealth #recoverywarrior

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    I messed up. Now what…

    What do you do when you mess up ? What now ? Start again. Again. I suppose. #SH #Selfharm #BPD #Anorexia #EatingDisorder #ED #help

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    New here… Southampton based

    Anyone this area with bpd / ED - feel free to pop up I need support right now too #BPD #ED

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    Any adults with #ARFID or similar?

    Long time suspected I have an #EatingDisorder but when I went to my psychologist with the lengthy list of reasons why, the list of behaviours and beliefs and I was really open, I was told flat out that as I ‘don’t count calories’ and don’t weigh myself consistently, I don’t have an #ED and that was it.

    Let’s be clear. I do not want another diagnosis. I have plenty to get along with.

    I want help to understand myself and to help myself get better and live a healthier and happier life.

    The bizarre thing, is that I posted an anonymous ‘asking for a friend’ post in a Facebook support group, and everyone responded with ‘yes, your friend needs help and they definitely have an illness and need to seek support immediately’ but then when I revealed to a few friends that it was me and it was about me, they accused me of ‘wanting to have an ED’. Which as you can imagine is absolute rubbish.

    Anyway. Anyone been in a similar situation? Any suggestions? How did you manage it? Have you found a way to manage it?

    Thank you.

    #EatingDisorders #adultswitheatingdisorders #eatingdisordersupport

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    Weight-loss journey, self-esteem, healthy & unhealthy habits, ups & downs...

    Hi lovely community, glad to be back. As I’m going through my weight-loss journey, I’ve realized lots of things that I want to share with you guys. In order not to trigger anybody, I will not be sharing my weight nor the amount of calories per day, since every body is different 💕

    2 years ago, I was overweight to the point of feeling how my heart raised randomly, I felt bad and as I was anxious all the time, I’d eat junk food to fill the void inside me almost 4 to 5 times a week. Then, I began to find the motivation to go to the gym and now I’m working out 5 times per week and trying to do cardio everyday for at least 30 minutes. I feel much better not only physically but mostly mentally. Although, this is what I really want to share:

    We’re always told that if we’re consistent we will improve every day and we’ll get better at it. I’m here to tell you that’s not always the case and it’s ALRIGHT. Some days like today, I’m so lazy I can’t leave bed and I’m so unmotivated I really don’t want to do anything. When I go to the gym I see all these people who seem to be working out so easily and their appearance matches the ‘fitness aesthetic’ most of the time, and it used to bring me down so much. I began eating as low as 500 calories per day or even less, until I realize I was struggling with an eating disorder. I was and to this day am simply terrified of gaining weight again, but the wake up call was me realizing that eating less that 800 calories per day might not be sustainable on a future. Also, my energy at the gym dropped incredibly.

    Now, next thing I know I’m recovering from 2 very rough eating disorders that made me feel like I was doing things right because the results were faster, but faster ain’t better and much less, long-termed. We’re all different therefore our bodies process fat, carbs and food in a different way, that is why you’ll see me, with my rolls bouncing off my tummy, my love handles hanging and my thighs with cellulite still working out at the gym because how I look like does NOT define my lifestyle. We cannot all look like fitness instructors and that is alright but sometimes I know it and I still feel bad to this day. Also, I know its hard to tell the difference between laziness and lack of energy due to diets I’ve been following, so those are my current challenges as of now.

    If you have any questions feel free to message me, my inbox is now open again. 💕

    (picture credit: @handsomegirldesigns on instagram)

    #Anxiety #BipolarDepression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ED #EatingDisorders #AnorexiaNervosa #Depression #WeightLoss

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    Back on the waiting list

    They think the hearing loss isn’t because of the ear infection, and after saying no for 5 years I finally said yes to surgery. Waiting list is at least 6 months.

    Doctors appointment tomorrow to see what they suggest for the weight loss and bruising. I wonder if they’ll think it’s a relapse of my ED. I never realise them myself.

    #bruising #bruise #weight #WeightLoss #ED #EatingDisorder #AnorexiaNervosa #ent #Surgery #HearingLoss

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    Doesn’t matter how I feel, I will die still trying! Never give up

    #PTSD #Anxiety #MentalHealth #ED
    #mighty #Trustyourgut

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