TW: abuse, family dysfunction.
Everytime I see my father, I have bad dreams for days afterwards.
He was in and out of our lives as children, him and my mom split up several times until she finally decided to divorce him when I was 24. That was after many years of verbal abuse and some physical as well. The physical abuse was never directed towards me, although one of my younger sister did experience it. Me and my siblings have no contact with my father, however his family still supports him (my aunt, uncles, grandma) - despite his abusive nature, drug problems, and neglect toward his children.
I recently saw him at a funeral and allas the nightmares started again. Memories of childhood, nightmares where my mom would take him back. The funeral was last weekend and my dreams have been consistent since then. I wake up covered in sweat, scared and confused. I don't understand why this is happening. I don't know if I need to seek professional help for the dreams to go away. It's inevitable that I'll see my father at some points, at funerals and big family events. How do I make sure I don't have these dreams for days/weeks afterwards?
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