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Aye grrr I feel disturbed

Every morning when I wake up lately I feel so irritated and agitated 😠

Can anyone relate ??

Also is there anything that helps u with those kinds of feelings? Is there anything that helps with negative thoughts 💭/feelings? What do u do to distract yourself and feel more positive?

Thanks much love 💕

#Bipolar1 #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety

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Aye grrr I feel disturbed

Every morning when I wake up lately I feel so irritated and agitated 😠

Can anyone relate ??

Also is there anything that helps u with those kinds of feelings? Is there anything that helps with negative thoughts 💭/feelings? What do u do to distract yourself and feel more positive?

Thanks much love 💕

#Bipolar1 #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety

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Finally reaching out for any sort of advice with my mental health/ my addiction.

hi guys! i just made this account today after i’ve caught myself reading a lot of articles about #BipolarDisorder & #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder haha.
so i thought i’d reach out (surprisingly) and ask the public for help since i can’t seem to get myself to get help professionally. i was wondering if anyone has any feedback or honestly anything at all that could help me with getting sober i would appreciate it so much. i want to get clean so so bad, yet for some reason i find myself using still. it’s like a routine i knowingly can break & want to but for some reason don’t? i hate not feeling like i have any control over my body/ or any choices i make yet im aware that i’m the only one in control of my person & the only one that can make any decision for myself. it’s similar to how i will have a certain negative reaction toward someone, and in that moment i know that i’m causing them to feel bad, i also know that i’m taking all my frustration out on them, causing them to feel like everything is their fault but my emotions are just too strong to the point where i feel like what im saying in the moment is appropriate although i also have the mindset in that moment, that its not but still,. i can’t stop although im not actually intentionally trying to make whoever, feel that negative way at all. but at the same time feel as if everyone needs to feel this anger, sadness, whatever present emotion as strongly as i am. then once i get over that feeling, i then talk down on myself causing a deep depressive episode because i feel so awful for how i treated that person(s). this is a continue cycle that i know i get to chose weather or not i want to break the cycle but at the same time it seems like i dont have the control over doing? like its so frustrating that anytime i want something, no matter how bad…. i do whatever i can to get the opposite just so i can be upset/angery just to start problems that i dont even want to the slightest. and even if i get what i want in a situation, then i will literally convince myself that i actually wanted the complete opposite/ what i said i didnt want & proceed to still get upset/ angry. which i think thats why i cant overcome my addiction if that makes sense? i dont really understand why im this way & why i cause myself to never be pleased with anything. like why is it that if i want something and i get it, i still torture myself into having the belief that i want the opposite? is it because i feel like i deserve to feel these awful ways? maybe because of the narcissistic abuse i went through? maybe its because i lost my dad at 12yrs old? i wish i understand more about how trauma affects me today but i struggle with gettinf any help whatsoever and im suprised im even reaching out on here. idk…i dont understand myself. if anyone sees this and can give me any feedback no matter what it is, id actually appreciate it so much you have no idea. and if you read this whole thing, you’re seriously such an angle. thank you<3 #Bipolar1 #Autism #Addiction

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Finally reaching out for any sort of advice with my mental health/ my addiction.

hi guys! i just made this account today after i’ve caught myself reading a lot of articles about #BipolarDisorder & #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder haha.
so i thought i’d reach out (surprisingly) and ask the public for help since i can’t seem to get myself to get help professionally. i was wondering if anyone has any feedback or honestly anything at all that could help me with getting sober i would appreciate it so much. i want to get clean so so bad, yet for some reason i find myself using still. it’s like a routine i knowingly can break & want to but for some reason don’t? i hate not feeling like i have any control over my body/ or any choices i make yet im aware that i’m the only one in control of my person & the only one that can make any decision for myself. it’s similar to how i will have a certain negative reaction toward someone, and in that moment i know that i’m causing them to feel bad, i also know that i’m taking all my frustration out on them, causing them to feel like everything is their fault but my emotions are just too strong to the point where i feel like what im saying in the moment is appropriate although i also have the mindset in that moment, that its not but still,. i can’t stop although im not actually intentionally trying to make whoever, feel that negative way at all. but at the same time feel as if everyone needs to feel this anger, sadness, whatever present emotion as strongly as i am. then once i get over that feeling, i then talk down on myself causing a deep depressive episode because i feel so awful for how i treated that person(s). this is a continue cycle that i know i get to chose weather or not i want to break the cycle but at the same time it seems like i dont have the control over doing? like its so frustrating that anytime i want something, no matter how bad…. i do whatever i can to get the opposite just so i can be upset/angery just to start problems that i dont even want to the slightest. and even if i get what i want in a situation, then i will literally convince myself that i actually wanted the complete opposite/ what i said i didnt want & proceed to still get upset/ angry. which i think thats why i cant overcome my addiction if that makes sense? i dont really understand why im this way & why i cause myself to never be pleased with anything. like why is it that if i want something and i get it, i still torture myself into having the belief that i want the opposite? is it because i feel like i deserve to feel these awful ways? maybe because of the narcissistic abuse i went through? maybe its because i lost my dad at 12yrs old? i wish i understand more about how trauma affects me today but i struggle with gettinf any help whatsoever and im suprised im even reaching out on here. idk…i dont understand myself. if anyone sees this and can give me any feedback no matter what it is, id actually appreciate it so much you have no idea. and if you read this whole thing, you’re seriously such an angle. thank you<3 #Bipolar1 #Autism #Addiction

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Incandescence

Incandescent- emitting light as a result of being heated.

All my life I have wanted to be an advocate, to tell my story- my testimony.

From the age of 12 I feel as though I have been walking through a thick fog, struggling to move, struggling to breathe.

First it was the #Depression that crept it, and it graduated to #Bipolar1

In 2019, I was diagnosed with #Lupus which disabled me to the point that I lost my ability to walk.

I feel as though I have blinders on, only seeing how lupus has taken everything from me- my ability to walk, my ability to have children, my ability to work out, my ability to work.

There's only so much my body can take.

I want to be able to be that happy-go-lucky person who can see the bright side and give it to God. But I just don't think it's in my genetics.

But maybe, just maybe , my story can inspire and spark a light in someone else's light as a result of my story. There is purpose in pain; every flower must grow through dirt.

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Incandescence

Incandescent- emitting light as a result of being heated.

All my life I have wanted to be an advocate, to tell my story- my testimony.

From the age of 12 I feel as though I have been walking through a thick fog, struggling to move, struggling to breathe.

First it was the #Depression that crept it, and it graduated to #Bipolar1

In 2019, I was diagnosed with #Lupus which disabled me to the point that I lost my ability to walk.

I feel as though I have blinders on, only seeing how lupus has taken everything from me- my ability to walk, my ability to have children, my ability to work out, my ability to work.

There's only so much my body can take.

I want to be able to be that happy-go-lucky person who can see the bright side and give it to God. But I just don't think it's in my genetics.

But maybe, just maybe , my story can inspire and spark a light in someone else's light as a result of my story. There is purpose in pain; every flower must grow through dirt.

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Choose your Battles

In my season of change I stumbled upon this picture.

I started a new job and it’s hard to get to my specialists and doctors in time but they provide me with great insurance- choose your hard.

Nick and I just got engaged last week- choose your hard.

I lost 10 pounds from stress - choose your hard.

Nick and I don’t communicate well but we are working together and choosing each other every day- choose your hard.

I may never be a photographer again but sometimes the reward of health insurance when you’re chronically ill… outweigh your passions- choose your hard.

I have a lot of decisions to make. And I have to make sure my health comes first.

I love you, and I’ll see you soon 🧡
#Lupus #AntiphospholipidSyndrome #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #MentalHealth #Bipolar1

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Choose your Battles

In my season of change I stumbled upon this picture.

I started a new job and it’s hard to get to my specialists and doctors in time but they provide me with great insurance- choose your hard.

Nick and I just got engaged last week- choose your hard.

I lost 10 pounds from stress - choose your hard.

Nick and I don’t communicate well but we are working together and choosing each other every day- choose your hard.

I may never be a photographer again but sometimes the reward of health insurance when you’re chronically ill… outweigh your passions- choose your hard.

I have a lot of decisions to make. And I have to make sure my health comes first.

I love you, and I’ll see you soon 🧡
#Lupus #AntiphospholipidSyndrome #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #MentalHealth #Bipolar1

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I’m new here!

Howdy! My name is Trudy🧜🏻‍♀️✨ I have Bipolar 1 Disorder, Combined ADHD, and Complex PTSD. I feel so alone b/c I don't know many people within the mental health community💔 I'm here to learn more about my disorders and to understand other people's pain and their disorders as well✨

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