boarderlinepersonalitydisorder

TW: suicidal thoughts, fp breakup

My FP (who was my boyfriend) broke up with me yesterday, and i feel like i can’t live. i wanna end my life. he was the only person who i felt like was my comfort zone, he was my everything and i don’t know how to live without him anymore, he told me friday that he loved me and wanted forever and then just left, i feel like i’m not worth it and i’m not enough. i’ve been crying for the past 2 days and throwing up, i don’t know what to do anymore.

He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”
Psalm 46:10

I’m happy to be in this group.

have no idea of who I am. I have always tried to reenact peoples behaviour, as far as 10 years old. I don't know if thats so they like me or if I just think thats what you do. I am so irritated by my voice and behaviour because it never feels natural.

I am constantly looking in the mirror for faults . I think people don't like me because of my nervous energy, i don't blame them .I am the master of rejecting my self. I find life so hard. I am so sick of my mood swings and being this needy , almost controlling person.
I am always so jealous in relationships. I don't even know if jts jelousy . Its when my boyfriend wants to play his game instead of talking with me. I kick off like so bad. He is such a good boyfriend and doesn't deserve it. I finish with him almost every week and fall in to a massive depression of suicidal thoughts and self harm and back to him again and this goes on and on and on. I even thought that he had an erection over a gaming character and again kicked off :/ my mind is still in conflict because even though I know this is irrational I seem to think that I have this great intuition that I can sense betrayel , or deceptiveness .so I never fully believe or trust anyone. I hate being this person and i try so hard to change but i can never do it. After years and years of this I finally seek help and been diagnosed with bpd. I don't know anything about it. Just that i need to wait for the covid restrictions to be over to get DBT .Will I feel more natural after DBT ? Does this sound like I have BPD ? Any one similar? #boarderlinepersonalitydisorder

I'm overwhelmed with emotion, as today I was told it is possible I have borderline personality disorder. I am having a hard time wrapping my head around this concept and what exactly it means. #boarderlinepersonalitydisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #Depression

I don't even know how to put this into words. But I am tired and drained by everyone coming to me for help. I hurt and now I have to unpack my stuff and mop my floors because my apartment building sprayed for bugs which the spray maded me feel worse. But on a good note I don't want to SH. Today. YAY.
I planned for today to just rest but I had to leave my apartment for the day because I had to be out of my apartment for 4 to 5 hours. So I am hungry and tired.
I didn't ask for any of this. Added to everything i have a dr's appointment tomorrow which i am scared to go to.

Hey everyone,
Im new to this. My partner of nearly a year has bpd and hasn't been in a great place lately. Im being as supportive as I can and everything she throws at me im taking on the chin and still being there for her.
I've done so much research and at the moment I try everything not to upset her but everything I am doing is not right and she is constantly telling me research it. She is constantly telling me it is over and I tell her I am going nowhere. I just stuck on what else I can do.
The last thing I want is this to be about me but I am stuck. Can anyone help me? #BPD #BoarderlinePersonality #boarderlinepersonalitydisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

You really find out who your real friends are. I had to break off a friendship after a very nasty text after I wouldn't answer my phone. She will never understand nor will she even try.
The sad thing I didn't even cry over it.

Hi , I am tired of reaching out to people and yet no one is there for me. I hate depression and boarder line personality. What have I done so wrong to ppl? But yet when someone reaches out to me I am there. I called or texted 8 ppl and yet not one person checked on me. I ask G*d every night to take me home and wake up crying when He doesn't. I finally took a shower today after it being 3 days. I am done. I can't talk to my therapist for over 3 weeks. My therapist just tells me to go to the group therapy and to look up coping skills on google. So no help there. Oh well.