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😂💀 so wanted to share this with people that would hopefully find this as amusing as I do…
I had an intake appointment today at *insert unnamed mental health care place*. It was meant to be a 45 minute appointment.. lol well it turned into an hour and a half long appointment and the worker would 100% preferred me to go to a psych ward for 3 weeks (until our next appointment) than drive the 38 minutes home to feed my small zoo 🤪 but I don’t have time for that soooo yeah 😂😂 #bpdnightmare

I am taking control TODAY. I can't change who I have already been and the things I have already done/said. I am secure in the fact that I CAN overcome BPD and enjoy a life without fear.

I would have done sooo many things differently had I accepted that I had an illness before this year. I am thankful for my FP because she has patience, forgiveness, and acceptance and has opened my eyes to who I could be and to true unconditional love.

I will no longer block my happiness and blessings!

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Hi, everyone! This is something I'm pretty concerned about because I find counseling like a hard tool I wouldn't really take if it weren't necessary, It's not easy to take out everything I feel, and it's even tougher to get to know myself and even more complicated to know how to use correctly the tools they give me (even when they seem simple) which of course winds up in a worthless hole. Meds have been good, now I'm able to eat properly and to feel better at any point of the day (at least) but in the end, I don't know I'm so frustrated.

They kept giving me advice that didn’t make sense to me with my diagnosis of depression, but it makes sense with bpd. And since I’m the one who has to figure out how to live with it I feel like they should have told me🤷‍♀️ Any thoughts?
I’m pretty new to this so I hope it’s okay to ask this kind of question here. I would also appreciate any encouragement from anyone who is successfully living with bpd. Thanks!
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This is more than baby fever. I hate that no matter who it be, they judge me for wanting a baby because of my age. Me saying i want to have a baby doesn’t mean i’m rushing things or that i don’t understand what it takes to be a mom. I say i want to be a mommy because i know exactly what it takes, nobody at all can comprehend the level that my mindset is at. No one is going to tell me i shouldn’t have one because i’ll go mentally insane or it’ll make me worse. That’s all for me to decide. I’ve studied myself since the age of 7, my self awareness and awareness to the world isnt something for you to assume. My pysch team even said it. I’ve wanted a baby since i was 18 and i am now 20, not pregnant, still with the same partner i fell inlove with 3 years ago and everyone around us judges me for wanting his child? Are you kidding me? I could’ve tried for it by now but i’m not being stupid. I’m waiting for the right time and for me that would be when i have my own home and a true commitment so nothing can hinder the way we want to raise the human we create. I worry because i have a tumour on my ovary and uterus but people don’t assume anything’s ever wrong with a 20 year old. Now that the surgeries were postponed for covid, my chances of not being able to carry are higher. We don’t know whether or not it’s cancerous until after i have the surgery so he has to treat it as though it is when he removes it. Which means more chances of losing my uterus. I just want to experience a full pregnancy as i’ve had an ectopic with the same partner a year back and even then i was ready for a baby that i couldn’t have. My partner and I (before we found out i have a rumour) wanted to go the IVF route one day, his dad had passed away from huntington’s disease and we don’t know whether or not he carries it too but even if he didn’t, huntington’s skips generations too so our child would have a high chance still. But now, we know i might not be able to even have children after this surgery and it just feels like i’ve wanted this forever and i waited but it’s just to late. Yes i want to adopt in the future, but i wanted that first experience of creating a miracle in fusion of my favourite person and I. I’m just not in control, of my mind or my body. I want someone to just understand how i feel .

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I'm laying in bed and i feel like there is so much pressure inside my head and my chest that I'm going to get a brain aneurysm!!! I hate this - I've never experienced it this bad before and I don't know how to cope!!!!! #Anxiety #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #bpdnightmare