Feeling like a China doll #PTSD
Between the insomnia, night terrors and the pervasive sorrow, guilt, pain, and terror that follow me everywhere I'm feeling so vulnerable right now. The counselling has helped me deal with the anger of but at least being angry wasn't as paralysing as this is.
I am unable to remember what I'm saying half way through saying it let alone what the question was. I don't remember anything unless it's written down, but I am failing to remember to write it down with alarming frequency.
Nothing is working to calm my mind - mindfulness is just not within my ability at the moment. I feel like I'm vibrating in my own skin from all the negative emotions that I honestly couldn't name. Please tell me I will get through this because I cannot see a way back to the surface from this abyss. How do I manage what I can only imagine is 8 years of grief surfacing? #Notcoping