Today is an up kind of day for me. I’m 2-months post diagnosis for metastatic/invasive lobular carcinoma. At first, I was scared, then angry, then a depressive episode (DE).
Recently, I flipped a mental switch from “Am I going to die soon?” to “How shall I live with this long-term illness?” I’m emerging from the depressive episode, and want to reconnect to the supportive people I ghosted during the darkness. But, I find it almost impossible to call people.
My world looks exactly the same, but I have more appointments and more uncertainty to deal with, and I am tired. I am glad to find a community that understands differently abled people. Thank you.