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This boy in my class made fun of me and said I am not appealing. Honestly the same boy failed the class and might have a criminal record which makes me feel better because what he did to me was wrong. I am diagnosed with Schizophrenia Bipolar. I have had people be so mean and rude to me my whole life especially boys in school and just men in general. I have been called ugly my whole life. I am disabled and I am 29 years old. I almost got attacked twice in school like beat up too for no reason and it was by boys. My nationality is West Indian. That’s why I don’t plan on going back to school only doing online school because why do people have to attack me? I am not a bad person.
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The girl who did this, her and her sister took advantage of me and I hope to never see them or have people like that back in my life. They are such low life bums and what they did to me traumatized me. I am going to a therapist and I told them what they did to me. They are nasty. What is even worse is that they are of similar culture of mine and it makes me not want to be around people of my nationality because all that mistreatment I got from them. The girl who forced me to touch her boobs, I know this might sound harsh but I really don’t care what happens to her especially her sister. If they punish I would laugh lol. One of there family members was on the news for something really bad and if I knew all this information about them, I would of never talked to such awful people.
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My right hip is really bad tonight. I took a Norco about 2 hours ago but it didn't help. I'm not sure if I should take a gummy or a squirt of tincture... Well I guess I figured it out, Pauley just gave me 2 CBD gummies. I need to get some regular gummies for when I just want something to eat. Except Pauley would have a fit if I got candy.
My scalp is really bad right now. Right behind my ears are big patches of seborrheic dermatitis and big red welts and open sores. Pauley took some pics of the spots so I can send them to my doctor. I've never seen what the spots look like and I'm shocked by how bad it's become. But there's a problem. My doctor is now responsible for over 4k patients on her own. My previous doctor, the owner of the practice and my friend, has turned off the messaging system on the portal and I can't email my doctor cuz she doesn't use it anymore. I'm starting to get very anxious about getting my health under control when I can't see my PCP for 2 months. I'm trying to get most of my stuff done by my specialists. But I'm starting to forget the doctor I'm seeing when I get to the office or I'm not sure what day it is. Pauley added an app to my phone for the day and time so I can remember. But I'm also having trouble with forming coherent sentences. I can type decently but a post typically takes about an hour to write. I get distracted far too easily and then I go do something and then I get food... eventually I remember I'm in the middle of writing a post and by the time I get back to write it, I've forgotten my point. Like right now.
I don't feel good at all. I tried to tell Pauley I have a hair in my left ear and she said "what did it sound like?" I wish she would take me seriously sometimes.
When I don't feel good I need a nurturing partner to help me function. Sometimes she doesn't want to help me and I either don't get the thing I asked for or I gotta do it myself. And when I do it myself the chances of me getting hurt are pretty high. I'm very clumsy.
I wish I had ice cream. I've got some mango mochi ice cream balls from Aldi and I really enjoy them but right now I want peanut butter chocolate ice cream so I can microwave it into soup. I'm probably the only person who microwaves my ice cream. It's just so cold and hurts my teeth.
I had a dream we adopted a kitty. It played out in my head just how I have imagined it would go... She farts on the cat and I have to nurture the poor fartcat and ground Pauley from oatmeal for a week. She farted on our previous cat a few years ago and I had to say something I never imagined...
We do not fart on our babies. Now apologize to our baby and do not ever think of doing it again.
I'm very thirsty. It's very warm in my apartment.
I think this post took 2 hours. And I bet nobody is going to read it.
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