I just can't get motivated to do anything. House is a disaster and needs to be cleaned, laundry is clean but just in piles, not folded or hung up so now I will have to iron or throw everything back in the dryer to get the wrinkles out. I quit my server job because I'm too exhausted. I started another job as a shopper/delivery person where I can make my own schedule, work as little or as much as I want and I can't even convince myself to do this. My husband passed away from a massive heart attack last December and everyone tells me I'm still grieving, it's going to take time, etc. And I get that, I just want to be able to get through one day without forcing myself to be back to my old self. I am not someone who has to or wants to talk about feelings, I'm already taking antidepressants and have been for years. I'm so tired of being exhausted for no reason.