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The loneliness of chronic pain

It's another morning and the pain has woken you up once again. It's been a decade long journey that would involve several surgeries and eventually bi lateral orthopedic braces. You were able to keep a few friends but over the years you have lost more friends and relationships than you have.
You knew many years ago that this would happen people would stop asking you to gatherings or fun camping trips because 9 times out of ten you have to say no because of your condition..
The pain would eventually drive you mad and now you have to take antidepressants because you started hearing voices telling you to kill yourself and the stress of being on edge everyday.
You have never met such a formidable foe than chronic pain so you spend years and a bag of tricks trying to live and prosper within this living hell.
This is my story but other than a couple differences it is the story of millions of people world wide so that something you constantly hear,and maybe even say to yourself it could be worse other people have worse conditions.
Then one day you realize that the worst outcome of your neurogenic muscle atrophy is being paralyzed and now it's really serious your ability to walk and your ability to take care of yourself is at stake
All this is just compounded because now you have no friends and you can't leave the house unless it's Dr appointment or u have to do shopping.
I've never felt so alone in my life.
Im not the only one on this forum to feel this way how do others cope with the endless pain and endless loneliness? I'm out of ways to cope my tool box is empty would be nice if someone had some insight.🙂🌻 #ChronicPain #neurogenicmuscleatrophy #dusabled #Deoression #tactilealodynia

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Can depression make you a bad person? Has everyone else felt like that?

I feel like depression is making me a bad person; or maybe I was always one. I feel like I don't care as much as I should about others. I give typical words of comfort, I ask typical questions. Nothing deep. Nothing the person I wanted to become would ask or say. I feel distant from everyone, friends and family. Like we're in parallel roads but I can see them being separated along the way. Like I'm watching everyone through a glass and we have basic communication but I'm not really there. I don't belong there. #Deoression #mood #Derealization #Undiagnosed

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"A Day In My life" my thought process

I am stuck in a dark place, my emotions try to erase the terror I have yet to face... inside of the memories I can not remember that took place ... I lay awake at night soaked in tears of pain...my minds feeling like im gone insane but I know its the things I've had to endure ...the past has come knocking at my door ... "why has this happened to me" I say my insomnia keeps me wide awake questioning my life okay... #Trauma #Life #Sadness #Deoression #Anxiety

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What was good about your day?

In the evening I often try to recall 5 positive moments of the past day...

Which is, today:

sunshine, it got warmer again outside, having coffie with a friend, painting a bit, and watching my bun eating dandelion.

What was or where your good moments today? #Deoression #Depression #COVID19 #ADHD #Anxiety #COVID19 #UK #Mentalillnessfeelslike #HypermobileTypeEDS #MightyBookClub

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