endmysuffering

I am totally alone. I have no friends or family. My boyfriend for almost 2 years never comes home, is cheating (denies it of course), and if I didn't know any better I'd swear he does things that trigger the worst side of my disorders then uses that as an excuse to get mad at me and not come home. I stay so damned depressed and literally always alone. I sit in my room and do nothing but think about all the information & photos that I can't unsee or unknow. I haven't been able to get out of bed for 5days now. I don't want to live anymore....