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Hopeless #ChronicIllness #suffering #Undiagnosed

I have been dealing with this for 3 years now, I cannot imagine living the rest of my life like this. It started with me not being to able to exercise at all or exert myself and any activity or stress causes me chest discomfort, heart pounding, jitterness, unable to regulate my body temperature for hours maybe days. After struggling to fall asleep I get better next day. I am not able to go any long period without eating when this was normal for me in the past. Some days I get episodes of overwhelming fatigue that last less than 24 hrs but are crippling.

I have exhausted all work up and feel like a burden on my doctors and everyone I love. I don’t quite fit the dysautonomia or POTS picture based on my work up. All we know is that my body doesn’t utilize oxygen well and my heart works too hard.

How do you cope with this?

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Thinking in my thoughts, talking to my parts, in mindful awareness of my PTSD.

I take my hand to my heart...

To my inner child,

Hello part of me. I hear you. I'm sorry you're feeling sad, I'm sorry you're feeling lost but I'm making a tuna sandwich right now and I understand that you are in pain and that you are suffering but I cannot concentrate on my food. I want to give the space for you to be seen and heard but I think that now isn't the time to discuss this and I can't tell you what you need to hear, the answer to your do I fix your suffering? Maybe there isn't a way, maybe we just hold each other here, in my place in the kitchen, in your place in the past and we can be here and we take a moment to acknowledge that whatever it is your suffering from, that it's okay to feel what your feeling.

And so lets try and enjoy this sandwich together?

All my love, from my manager...

And I sit here in fear of this post today, because my mind is open to be witnessed now, and I am willing to be seen and seen I am.

#PTSD #innerchild #innerworld #foodlove #ChronicPain #suffering

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BPD and Suicidality

It makes you feel like a burden on your loved ones. Family support groups are not so available in India. So as a result families don't get to know how to deal with the person with BPD, although they are there with all intention to help. But they fail most of the time to understand what the person with BPD is going through and what to tell and not to tell. So it affects the person with BPD. And as diagnosed with BPD I know how difficult it is to control oneself from attempting suicide and self harming. I am self-harming from a very young age(when I was 10 years old). I have attempted suicide before. Two times. I was 20 years old then. I got diagnosed with BPD few days back when I'm 26. I don't know if it's already too late or not. Suicidal thoughts and urges are there. I'm fighting with it all the time. I know I won't get much help from my family. And I also don't have friends who will understand BPD. Most of them left because of my anger or I pushed them away. A typical BPD trait. My only hope is my therapist and maybe myself. It is really hard to exist with BPD and as an add I've Major Depressive Disorder and severe anxiety. Only GOD can help me I guess. I wish anyone suffering from any mental health issue gets treated and gets all the support they need. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPD #SuicideAttempt #suicidality #treatment #suffering #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety

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What is a professional Overcomer?

If you deal with chronic illness or mental health and are unable to do all that someone without these problems can it doesn’t mean you have no value in fact it means your even more valuable because through the process and journey of these struggles we learn so much about perseverance, compassion and love. We all have one thing in common WE CHOOSE to love each day despite our pain and struggles
and we have a job it’s the most important of all to OVERCOME daily and that is not a job we get paid for but a job we choose to take everyday. So celebrate your profession because it really does make you who you are. The darkest times are when we have to choose to shine.

#POTS #MentalHealth #Anxiety #ChronicIllness #CheerMeOn #overcome #Depression #suffering #Pain #Faith

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When your sick and tired of being sick and tired

#Fibromyalgia #Fatigue #Pain #BackPain #ChronicFatigue #ChronicIllness #suffering #CognitivelyDisabled #Pyhsicallydisabled #FibromyalgiaSucks

We are so sick and tired of being sick and tired. Not having energy to do life. Not haveing the ability to do life. Living codependent and not independent. We are so frustrated sad fed up miserable we are not able to do what others do. In some cases IT is a blessing you have no 9 to 5 cause you can’t work. You have no significant responsibilities cause your not reliable. You have no commute or co-workers to deal with. An ungrateful supervisor or boss to report to. On the flip side you can’t even handle basic vehicle maintenance cause you can’t be outside in the cold or you get a chill. Further you are not able to drive anywhere anyway cause the stress of driving and travel on your body causes severe fatigue pain and you don’t enjoy yourself being out in public.

At this point if IT were possibly you would like to work remotely like built websites or programming. Yet you have such brain fog or you are not able to focus and you have several fatigue issues with mental focus. So you can really just barely concentrate on your needs to do to keep you alive. You even forgot to pay you bills or get back to that email. In fact you don’t even know what day IT is until you look are your phone.

Then you go to mindfulness classes or CBT sessions and chronic pain centres where they tell you you can get some relief if you change you thinking or if you meditate 🧘‍♀️ and or do stretches and physiotherapy movements. This is a journey to mental health and body recovery ❤️‍🩹. You continue to do so and when you go and do you feel good yet 1 to 2 hour sessions drain you drastically because your done for the rest of the day.

Try going to watch your children at a sporting event for a few hours only. To spend the rest of the day on the couch with a heating pad.

We know there is someone out there that this is speaking to. We know you are going through this too.

HSP Highly Sensitive People are so sensitive that environmental and social interactions completely drain us. We would love to go and go like the rest of the world. However if your a HSP you have to hibernate and recharge before going out again.

Please don’t give up there must be a cure there must be a way we can get better ❤️‍🩹.

Once able to work 60 hours a week. Once able to work look after children and house with a partner. Now just barely managing us. There must be a way. Heck they are transplanting new nerves into people who are stuck in a wheelchair so they can walk. You can’t tell me that IT is not possible to cure this cause world governments came up with a vaccine 💉 for Covid there must be a way to correct Fibromyalgia.

So if your still reading this and IT hits home cause someone you know has this Chronic Condition. Please please tell them do not give up.

You matter you are important you are worthy you are not alone you are valued and loved.

Please write ✍️ please post there are so many people who suffer from this.

Please keep the faith God can heal anything.

Please help our community so we can help others with this condition.


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He knows how you feel.

For those of you who deal with extreme sensitivity to rejection and anxiety as I do, please know that we are in good company.

Not only on earth, but even now in heaven, Jesus has and is experiencing rejection and abandonment.

On earth He experienced it from those who chose to deny His message, not to mention the very people who accepted Him but then encouraged His torture and death. He asked God to forgive the very same people that were at that time torturing and murdering Him. Lastly,His disciples abandoned Him when praying at Gethsemane and again out of fear as He hung on that cross.

Please know that we are not alone in our suffering. Jesus is suffering right along with us.

#Rejection #abandonment #Trauma #suffering #notalone #MightyTogether #TheMighty

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I recently joined 'reddit' and posted a comment on a self harm scar. My comment was insensitive and I will not repeat it here. It was the reply that I received which really opened my eyes to my own trauma.

The reply from the "redditor" was "I am sorry you are feeling powerless over your own body". I never thought about it this way. I know one thing for sure. The trauma took something away from me that day. It took my confidence and my care free attitude and left a bitter taste in my mouth.

I want that happy go lucky kid back. The other side of the argument is finally growing up and entering the 'real world'. It could be a combination of both although I consider it was mostly my poor decisions catching up with me.

12 long years have passed since I was assaulted and time has done little to heal the pain. I am just as angry and grief stricken as the day the incident occurred. I was not in control of the situation and maybe this is why I feel the way that I do?

Revenge plays on my mind a lot and I catch myself drifting in and out of seeking vengeance. I have medication which temporarily assists in levelling my emotions and focusing on the here and now.

My mind will play tricks on me from time to time; starting me off on a road of revenge only to lead me to grief and misery. I am of the belief that revenge will do little to heal my pain as the damage has well and truly been done.

#power #powerless #MightyTogether #TheMighty #Friends #foes #Love #hate #betrayal #Depression #ChronicFatigue #PTSD #Pain #suffering #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Scars #Trauma #Revenge #rut #despair #hopelessness #self #Selfesteem #Confidence #Happiness #Hope #pleasure #Healing #Recovery #Addiction #selfmedicate #Hope #Emotion #CPTSD #Grief #Survivor

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Black Dog

George Bernard Shaw said, “A Native American elder once described his own inner struggles in this manner: Inside of me there are two dogs. One of the dogs is mean and evil. The other dog is good. The mean dog fights the good dog all the time. When asked which dog wins, he reflected for a moment and replied, ‘The one I feed the most’.”#Trauma #Love #TheMighty #MightyTogether #Lonliness #Sadness #Depression #Lonliness #self #Friends #Family #sad #Emotion #Life #MakeMeLaugh #Shame #Guilt #suffering #Pain #hurt #struggle #Happiness #peace #MightyMinute

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Self Imposed Prison - Trapped in my own mind

When my world came crashing down, I was forced to find my way in the world. Every bad decision I made altered the course of my life. I was stuck in a rut as my father described it. Unfortunately for me; it was much worse than that.

The rut was one thing and the need to pull myself out of it was ever present. Sadly the rut was only the beginning of a life-time of negative emotions and regret. I wish I could have experienced the trauma and continued with a positive attitude and I did attempt to forget about the people who hurt me. No matter how hard I tried to forget and move on I was stuck reliving the trauma over and over again.

Angry, sadness and revenge continuously played on my mind. As time has passed I just wanted some closure from the incident as it is forever haunting me. Even an apology would make me feel a little better instead I am stuck in self-loathing and misery while the people who hurt me continue on as though nothing happened.

While everyone my age was having a good time and enjoying their youth, I would spend each weekend isolating in my room. Weekends trying to forget what happened to me with the help of marijuana. I was my own worst enemy, imprisoned and desperate for a solution. Just like everything else in my life - I was looking for an easy fix. An easy fix which I am still looking for to this day

I have come to realise that trauma will be ever present in my life. It has become a part of me whether I like it or not. The victim mindset has plagued me for years and I need to make a change. I need to let go of the negativity and anger once and for all.

#Recovery #PTSD #Depression #selfmedicate #Sadness #Pain #hurt #suffering #Addiction #Hatred #Jealousy #anger #despair #gloom #Doom #Love #Support #TheMighty #MightyTogether #Friendship #Family #people #places #things #control #Emotion #sad #feelingbetter #Slowly #Survivor #illness #struggle #adversity #Sabotage #selfawareness #Reflection

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