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Last night I went outside in my back yard and just punched the air over and over while listening to my fav EDM (electronic dance music) Lol good thing I didn’t wake my neighbors.

What else works? I’m looking for quick relief. If I continue to self-harm, my therapist is going to reject me. We had a long convo about how I’m not following through on our commitment to call the crisis line or his phone. Even after hours I’m supposed to call as an accountability to using skills. I know I need to practice willingness to change. It’s hard work. I’m sure I CAN do this but I feel stuck. Help plz. 😓