executivedisfunction

Today was a decent day though I still dont understand why I can’t make myself do the things that I know I need to do. #executivedisfunction #lackofmotivation

when you're autistic so your whole personality revolves around your special interests, but you're autistic so you can't pursue them -because executive dysfunction-
#actuallyautistic #Autism #executivedisfunction

In November I was diagnosed with Lyme disease. Not your basic "Oh I got bitten by a tick and my doctor put me on a 3 week course of doxy and now I'm all better", but chronic Lyme's disease. The sort where you can't remember what you said a minute ago, you're aching and exhausted 24/7, to the point you can't cry anymore, and you feel like a living corpse, with joints that dislocate biweekly, swell daily, and migraines that last full weeks.

It took 3 years of pestering my doctor, being misdiagnosed with a series of illnesses and being prescribed literal poison, before finally getting the answer I needed. In that time, I have developed chronic fatigue syndrome, crohns disease, symptoms of fibromyalgia and hypermobility, constant nausea and headaches, intolerances to food groups, slowed metabolism, fluctuations in weight, allergies, cluster illnesses like impetigo, pneumonia and bronchitis, spells of psychosis and hallucinations, sciatica, nerve damage and severe memory loss and brain fog.

Please educate yourselves on this horrible parasite. It may seem harmless, but it causes lasting damage and can attack all bodily systems, including cns and musculoskeletal systems, and cause neurological damage.

Please prevent it by learning about it, and protect yourselves by taking care with any insect bites (not just ticks). It's hikacked my body and I'd do anything to go back to how I was 12 months ago.

#lymesdiseaseawareness #lymeawareness #lymesdiseasehijackedmybody #LymeDisease #lymelife #LymeWarrior #lymediseasewarrior #lymedontkillmyvibe #ChronicIllness #CrohnsDisease #Fibromyalgia #executivedisfunction #BrainFog #Migraine #Insomnia #parasite #Hypermobility #exhaustion #nausea

I guess it’s no surprise. the last few weeks have been good. I had a lot of energy and got a lot done and was hoping it would carry over but this week I haven’t done anything except go to one interview and then I finally made it to the store last night.
I have therapy intake on Monday though so that’ll be good and hopefully by tomorrow I’ll know whether or not I got the job I interviewed for. I really want to just start working already. I feel like not being on a schedule is making me worse but I can’t keep myself on one without work no matter what I do.
I just feel like I’m drowning and I know the stuff I need to do to save myself but actually doing them is such a struggle. it takes me forever to get anything done. #Depression #executivedisfunction