Gender Dysphoria

I got knocked out cold very early yesterday until 6am today. I woke up with an awful tummy ache and I got really sick. I slept through Valentine's day on purpose. I was having double flashbacks yesterday morning and my back was really messed up so I took 2 THC gummies to knock me on my ass.
When I was 20 my boyfriend proposed to me on Valentine's Day. Shortly after he proposed I found out I was pregnant. I didn't plan to keep the baby but I was going to give them up for adoption. His family is Mormon and very strict. When I was 3 months pregnant he beat me and raped me quite hard and he kept pushing my abdomen. At some point he said "you did good. Now go clean up." I waddled to the bathroom... the rest of this story is too gory to share.
When I was just a kid 16 years ago I came out as transgender to my family and my mom beat the shit out of me. My family had a big reunion party at my house on Valentine's Day. One of my cousins said I looked very handsome. I told her I was coming out as transgender and she was so kind. My mom freaked out and punched me in the head and pushed me up against the bathroom wall so she could hit me and scream at me. She started crying and asked me"where did I go wrong!?!"
Later that night I sat behind my dad's bar and I found a glass jug of mogen David. I drank 2 thirds of the jug. Then I had my cousin mix me a screwdriver. I knew my daughter was safe cuz everyone just loved her to pieces. So I went and got my bag and car keys and snuck out and yeah I drove myself to the coffee shop...where my ex fiance was with his new whatever. I realized I couldn't handle seeing them so I wandered outside and went to 7-Eleven next to the coffee shop. I got 30 bucks worth of alcohol which I chugged in my car. My ex and his friends came out, somehow took my keys and my undrunk 4Loco. They shoved me in the car and closed the door. My brilliant idea was to crawl over to the other door... Which I did with about as much grace as a sloth hanging by 1 claw. I face planted. They picked me up and shoved me back in the car. A few minutes later my dad showed up and he was with my sister. They drove me home and I just went right to bed. What happened next?
I got disowned. 16 years ago today. My dad said I was deranged for wanting to have surgery to fix my gender dysphoria. He said I wanted to mutilate my body and he was disgusted by my decision.
So February is a difficult month for me.
I never told anyone about that.
10 years of history between me and Pauley and I never told her. I was trying to forget my past. There was so much violence and trauma during my teens and 20s. I've never known how to detach from my past trauma.
But this is the first valentines day I got triggered so hard in over 12 years. I don't know why. I was hoping to make happy memories this year with Pauley. But I got sick this morning. And then as I was sitting on the toilet I had another flashback about my daughter. So yeah I'm not doing so well.
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I am experiencing what is known as internal plurality, where I feel a strong feminine aspect in my personality named 'Yusra'. This aspect has a clear identity, interests, and desires that differ from my primary identity as a male . My relationship with 'Yusra' began as a casual online experience, but it has evolved to become an important part of my inner life. I feel vitality and comfort when expressing this aspect, but I also sometimes feel tension and anxiety about how to reconcile this experience with my personal and religious values.I am now at a stage where I am trying to understand and accept this plurality, and find healthy ways to express 'Yusra' while maintaining balance in my life. I am seeking professional help to better understand this experience and develop strategies for healthy psychological integration.my main goal is to find a balance that allows all aspects of my personality to express themselves in a healthy way that is consistent with my values, without one aspect dominating another. I welcome any guidance or resources that can help me on this journe
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I'm sitting here trying to relax and my head is pounding and I feel like I'm losing the fight against my gender dysphoria. I saw myself in the mirror in my bathroom and I panicked. I sat back down on the couch and Pauley asked if I needed help and I said I am struggling with my dysphoria. She got me a shirt and I am struggling with my hair so she's trying to help me deal with it. I just feel so awful. I'm gonna try to relax. But right now I'm in some serious pain. My tummy is not handling my dysphoria well at all.

Hi, my name is funkyunkyskyy510. I'm here because, I want to share my story with mental health, skills i learn and use every day and my everyday battle with being ok day to day. I may not be completly "better" or symptom free but i can do my best to live day to day one day at a time. i also want to share my journey of self love and gender affirming care i am reciving

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Hi, my name is EileenFlatscreen. I've been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, ADHD, RAD, ODD, Gender Dysphoria, Depression and Anxiety. working on a diagnosis of CPTSD, Newly Engaged to A Gorgeous Young Woman With Autism and Chrinic Fatigue Syndrome.

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Of course, I am not an expert, even though I am diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria, So I looked into multiple sources to give this week's tip.

The tip of the week. Try to understand what you are feeling. Don't deny the feelings. Don't try to ignore them. I tried to ignore the feelings for years and its only come back, but worse. Gender Dysphoria is not a comfortable thing, but ignoring it is never the answer.

Next week I will give tips for the other topic that won the vote (See the 21/1/25 or 1/21/25 Tuesday question to see what the other topic ). And if you have any questions about this week's tip, please comment down below. I will try to answer them as best as I can.

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Its Tuesday. And the poll has ended. As with the results of the poll, I will start posting tips on Gender Dysphoria and tips for dealing with side effects of testosterone and estrogen first few months.

I will start after this question is posted. Todays question. Would you rather read a book, or watch a movie/show. If you want to answer, why?

I would rather read a book. Sure, I like a lot of Movies and shows, but reading is more calming for me.

Thank you to everyone who voted! And thanks everyone who joined!

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Tw//// slight Transphobia and Homophobia

(Words with **___** around them are words that would have been in caps, I just don't like to use them.)

So, I've been talking about my male guardian lately in my posts that aren't related to my LGBTQ group. This should be my last one, I just want to get this off my chest.

So, this happened a while ago, before I had this app, I was trying to explain to my Male guardian why I wanted to be address as a male. (We've had multiple conversations about this) and I was trying to be open minded the whole time. It didn't seem my male guardian was though.

He kept turning the blame on me saying "well how do you think **I** would feel?". Like um, okay I can think about it, but you're not thinking about how this is making **me** feel. The whole conversation was me trying to get him to understand, and him trying to play victim.

One of the times we had the conversation, He used the "But I had visions. I was going to walk you down to get you married off. I was going to be there when your first child was born." thing.

Sure, I was thinking about how he would feel, but like 1. I was still willing to let him be at my wedding; I don't have to be a girl for him to do that. But when he said get me married off, I completely changed my mind about even wanting him there. It just felt uncomfortable when he said that. and 2. I won't ever have children. I have a phobia of them so that would not make a good life for a kid. And I would never want one to suffer.

I'm not trying to play victim here, I just wish my male guardian would try to understand. He was not very supportive of my past 2 relationships, both with people of the same gender.

So, when he said he'd try to do better, I was very excited. But literally like all he did was allow me to buy a trans pride flag. he didn't buy me one, he just let me press order and then give him the money for it. Like oh. Thanks dad. And I'm not really allowed to have it outside of my room.

And you could say he just needs time. I've been out to him for about 5 years now. I've been patient. I've never forced things on him. I just needed to get this off my chest. I will continue to give him time to try to understand. I won't give up on him yet. I just wish I could have my gender validated more than it is now.

Well, thank you for reading and maybe even commenting.

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