Gender Dysphoria

I can't handle seeing my feminine qualititties. My body makes me so unhappy. My chest is really bothering me today.
I set a rule maybe 10 years ago. I said I'm not allowed to wear my binder for more than 7 hours at a time.
Boy howdy, I was quite ambitious.
Meanwhile I'm wearing my sports bra for the 2nd week in a row. It's brutally hard to look at my body in the mirror. And I get really bad hot flashes all day. So wearing clothes at home when I'm not gonna see people just doesn't make any sense. I just kinda figured I'd be able to handle the dysphoria.
Gosh, I was very wrong.
I'm also struggling with my weight. Pauley keeps saying I need to lose weight so I don't die. She's terrified that I am going to die and leave her alone with her struggles and I don't think she'd last very long without me. I know I would not want to go on without her.
She is my favorite person, my safe space, my best friend, my life partner and my family.
She's also a major pain in the ass and annoying cuz she kidnapped my cow 🐮 plushie. He's my baby.
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I got knocked out cold very early yesterday until 6am today. I woke up with an awful tummy ache and I got really sick. I slept through Valentine's day on purpose. I was having double flashbacks yesterday morning and my back was really messed up so I took 2 THC gummies to knock me on my ass.
When I was 20 my boyfriend proposed to me on Valentine's Day. Shortly after he proposed I found out I was pregnant. I didn't plan to keep the baby but I was going to give them up for adoption. His family is Mormon and very strict. When I was 3 months pregnant he beat me and raped me quite hard and he kept pushing my abdomen. At some point he said "you did good. Now go clean up." I waddled to the bathroom... the rest of this story is too gory to share.
When I was just a kid 16 years ago I came out as transgender to my family and my mom beat the shit out of me. My family had a big reunion party at my house on Valentine's Day. One of my cousins said I looked very handsome. I told her I was coming out as transgender and she was so kind. My mom freaked out and punched me in the head and pushed me up against the bathroom wall so she could hit me and scream at me. She started crying and asked me"where did I go wrong!?!"
Later that night I sat behind my dad's bar and I found a glass jug of mogen David. I drank 2 thirds of the jug. Then I had my cousin mix me a screwdriver. I knew my daughter was safe cuz everyone just loved her to pieces. So I went and got my bag and car keys and snuck out and yeah I drove myself to the coffee shop...where my ex fiance was with his new whatever. I realized I couldn't handle seeing them so I wandered outside and went to 7-Eleven next to the coffee shop. I got 30 bucks worth of alcohol which I chugged in my car. My ex and his friends came out, somehow took my keys and my undrunk 4Loco. They shoved me in the car and closed the door. My brilliant idea was to crawl over to the other door... Which I did with about as much grace as a sloth hanging by 1 claw. I face planted. They picked me up and shoved me back in the car. A few minutes later my dad showed up and he was with my sister. They drove me home and I just went right to bed. What happened next?
I got disowned. 16 years ago today. My dad said I was deranged for wanting to have surgery to fix my gender dysphoria. He said I wanted to mutilate my body and he was disgusted by my decision.
So February is a difficult month for me.
I never told anyone about that.
10 years of history between me and Pauley and I never told her. I was trying to forget my past. There was so much violence and trauma during my teens and 20s. I've never known how to detach from my past trauma.
But this is the first valentines day I got triggered so hard in over 12 years. I don't know why. I was hoping to make happy memories this year with Pauley. But I got sick this morning. And then as I was sitting on the toilet I had another flashback about my daughter. So yeah I'm not doing so well.
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I am experiencing what is known as internal plurality, where I feel a strong feminine aspect in my personality named 'Yusra'. This aspect has a clear identity, interests, and desires that differ from my primary identity as a male . My relationship with 'Yusra' began as a casual online experience, but it has evolved to become an important part of my inner life. I feel vitality and comfort when expressing this aspect, but I also sometimes feel tension and anxiety about how to reconcile this experience with my personal and religious values.I am now at a stage where I am trying to understand and accept this plurality, and find healthy ways to express 'Yusra' while maintaining balance in my life. I am seeking professional help to better understand this experience and develop strategies for healthy psychological integration.my main goal is to find a balance that allows all aspects of my personality to express themselves in a healthy way that is consistent with my values, without one aspect dominating another. I welcome any guidance or resources that can help me on this journe
#SocialAnxiety #MentalHealth #Anxiety #GenderDysphoria

I'm sitting here trying to relax and my head is pounding and I feel like I'm losing the fight against my gender dysphoria. I saw myself in the mirror in my bathroom and I panicked. I sat back down on the couch and Pauley asked if I needed help and I said I am struggling with my dysphoria. She got me a shirt and I am struggling with my hair so she's trying to help me deal with it. I just feel so awful. I'm gonna try to relax. But right now I'm in some serious pain. My tummy is not handling my dysphoria well at all.

Hi, my name is funkyunkyskyy510. I'm here because, I want to share my story with mental health, skills i learn and use every day and my everyday battle with being ok day to day. I may not be completly "better" or symptom free but i can do my best to live day to day one day at a time. i also want to share my journey of self love and gender affirming care i am reciving

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Hi, my name is EileenFlatscreen. I've been diagnosed with Autism Spectrum Disorder, ADHD, RAD, ODD, Gender Dysphoria, Depression and Anxiety. working on a diagnosis of CPTSD, Newly Engaged to A Gorgeous Young Woman With Autism and Chrinic Fatigue Syndrome.

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Of course, I am not an expert, even though I am diagnosed with Gender Dysphoria, So I looked into multiple sources to give this week's tip.

The tip of the week. Try to understand what you are feeling. Don't deny the feelings. Don't try to ignore them. I tried to ignore the feelings for years and its only come back, but worse. Gender Dysphoria is not a comfortable thing, but ignoring it is never the answer.

Next week I will give tips for the other topic that won the vote (See the 21/1/25 or 1/21/25 Tuesday question to see what the other topic ). And if you have any questions about this week's tip, please comment down below. I will try to answer them as best as I can.

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Its Tuesday. And the poll has ended. As with the results of the poll, I will start posting tips on Gender Dysphoria and tips for dealing with side effects of testosterone and estrogen first few months.

I will start after this question is posted. Todays question. Would you rather read a book, or watch a movie/show. If you want to answer, why?

I would rather read a book. Sure, I like a lot of Movies and shows, but reading is more calming for me.

Thank you to everyone who voted! And thanks everyone who joined!

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