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Brain dump
This is just me emptying out what I have on my mind. A lot of it is random and probably won’t make sense, but I just need to vent a bit.
School is making me feel stressed and stupid. Senior year is taking forever and it sorta make me want to die. The teachers know we’re stressed, but they just don’t care as they continue to pile on assignment after assignment. It’s as if they don’t understand school is just another burden for some of us, as some of us have sports, clubs, family issues, and colleges to worry about.
School also makes me feel insignificant and small. There’s a lot of students; there are so many classmates, yet I don’t have any close friends to hang out with and talk to. It makes everyday burdensome and long. I hate feeling lonely. I just want to stay at home and be with my pets and parents. This morning, I wanted to stay in bed and not come out. But I only got up because I had to
The major factor that’s making me feel downright sad is my recent diagnosis with a milk allergy. All of my comfort foods were once dairy items, and it’s wrecking me knowing that I won’t be able to eat all the good stuff I used to have. It’s making me so sad that I don’t want to eat anything. I feel like I’d rather eat a pint of ice cream and wreck my digestive system than start going dairy free. I’ve been going through a grief cycle for about a week now. I think I’m at anger or bargaining.
I’m in a rough patch right now, and I don’t know what kind of help I need? A big hug from my mom? A change in learning? A therapist or a hospital? I wish I knew what I needed #Braindump #sad #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #suicidal #School #Highschoolsenior #HighSchool #Milkallergy #CheerMeOn #helpneeded
