Tw: Death in family #Dementia #Depression Death and Health Inurance woes
Today I'm so sad and #Depression is coming into play. My dearest Aunt who's been my rock up until she forgot who I am thanks to #Dementia is dying. My cousin texted me yesterday and told me she's in Hospice and they've given her 24 hours to live. Such devastating news.
She's still hanging on. I'm waiting for that dreaded call. She's been gone a long time as in the #Dementia has had her it's grips. I've grieved the loss of all things it's stolen from her, my uncle, her friends, family and me. Such painful time. I just lost a good friend to #Hodgkinslymphoma #Cancer just about 5 weeks ago. I have barely been able to process it and now my aunt.
My aunt will no longer be suffering, but she shall be missed. It's still hard. She's the one person in my family that loved me unconditionally. The rest were abusive.
So...also Today I received notice that my insurance is not covering my therapist anymore due to not medically necessary. What b.s. ! They didn't pay for April's appointments. I just can't. I can't lose her now. I lost my other great therapist last November because she left the practice. I called the office requesting my therapist call me, which she has. She's going to have a woman in insurance/billing department call me. I'm so anxious. #Anxiety is awful. I hope beyond hope this can all be straightened out. I hate insurance companies. I feel bad saying that, because so many don't even have any insurance.
There are no true words that describe how I feel. Angry, sad, anxious, don't truly cover it but it's the best that I can do. I'm hanging in there as best I can. Thankful I have support from a few friends.
#Dementia ...I Hate you!!! #Depression #Anxiety #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Migraine