hypersexual

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Please tell me I am not the only one…this is embarrassing…I feel like a”slut” and I feel so dirty.
I try to make sense of it.
I was sexually abused and attacked…many times throughout my life. So in my mind I think I’m crazy. I should be less sexual. Yet it’s the complete opposite. I have had random encounters. (I think for validation) maybe looking for love I have no idea. I have cheated on every man that I have had a relationship with. Then my current husband (who actually tries to understand and I think he does) will turn down sex from me. Often I try to use it as a distraction from stress or when I’m upset. He knows me though he knows when it is genuine and when it’s being used for another reason. I should appreciate it. Instead I’m angry and feel rejected. I use sex as my own type of soothing mechanism. I realize though that sometimes I just disassociate when I’m having intercourse. So it’s actually not even for sex.
This makes no sense. I’m sorry. It’s stupid I guess I just wanted to know that I’m not crazy.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder

I had sex with 2 guys in the same day. and I still don’t feel anything so it makes me want to just hook up with someone else. I’m just here going through the motions. I don’t find either of these guys interesting or “my type” I’m keep using them for sex, which I feel bad about. And it makes it even worse bc I can only somewhat enjoy it if I’m being physically hurt.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Sex #hypersexual #Selfharm #CPTSD

I had therapy this morning and I told my therapist I’ve been hyper sexual and I’ve been “hanging out “ out with people, and I don’t want to, but it’s the only way for me to cope. And he said “what if it was your sister what would you say to her” like wtf kinda question is that? I’m literally telling you I’ve been spiraling and you asking me how I should cope? This is how I’m coping you fucking moron but fucking ughhh!! I’m so annoyed. Am I being too sensitive? I hate the “what If” talk. Like fucking help me and stop making up these hypotheticals when I’m telling you real life shit

#Therapy #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #hypersexual

I was too much for him, and that’s okay. I can’t be mad that he didn’t save me. I can’t even save myself. That’s the only way I don’t get too depressed over my failed relationship. I loved him. I love him. But it’s okay. I will fill the space with meaningless sex until I am loved again.

#Relationships #Fp #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Sex
#Selfharm #Depression #Love #hypersexual

When I’m super triggered or want to escape my emotions I automatically go to sex. So lately I’ve been having a really hard time uo and down constantly and I bknetly just wanted to feel something, so I hooked up with this guy and I still don’t feel anything and now I’m triggered to do it all over again. Am I just a whore? I’m so sad. I just want everything to stop. I just want to get high and go away.

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #hypersexual #sad #Depression #triggered #cycle

I can feel my bpd getting worse. Impulsive behavior and so hyper sexual right now. I just want to do crazy things right now! 😔

i have bpd ,ocd and ptsd. and i am codependent these days. i am trying to control my bf #hypersexual behaviours ,he is working on himself. but i feel trigger every time ,whenever i feel danger or same behaviour of him i saw before .and my codependency creating mess in my life. can you suggest any tips tricks or books or anything from which i can balance my behaviour.

#BipolarDisorder