ImAMess

So I’m staying with a friend till my family gets settled in our new home. She’s been so amazing we talk a lot it’s almost as if I have an on-site psychiatrist. I really struggle with my identity I always have growing up in two really diverse atmospheres. When I was with my family I always felt like I wasn’t black enough I never sounded like everyone else even my siblings I’ve always spoke proper and I try and talk to fit in and sound ridiculous. When with my second family which is white and I’m obviously black I felt like am I too black I’d say stuff no one understood or could relate and I’d feel silly and just not communicate with anyone. My boyfriend is white he’s absolutely amazing and understanding i never thought I’d find someone willing to take on me and all my health baggage I feel like he’s the only person I can truly be myself and fully let my guard down around #CodeSwitch #CodeSwitching #Baggage #Lupus #Fibromyalgia #CVID #CommonVariableImmuneDeficiency #InterstitialCystitis #Osteoarthritis #Pain #Love #help #Selflove #Selfcare #Selfhate #ImAMess #Identity #identitycrisis