Loneliness

I miss my church family.
I really miss them.
Last time I felt like this was around covid time. Then I managed to meet them.
I stopped going because I got offended by something someone said.
Im currently on the psych ward.
Ive had four days in a row of having 4 good days. Then today. A bit blaaaahhhh lazy. And bored. I need to keep staying strong. Make strong decisions. While being kind to myself. Some of the staff are more caring than others.
I feel so tired and lethargic from the meds. Also the patients are noisey.
One day at a time. Hope all mighties understand. These are the things I need right talk to the staff about more.
I seemed to close up when I am approached by the psychiatric nurse.
I need to just keep being honest and open. Not to be overwhelmed by staff who are there to help and support me.
So I gt better and know and tell them that I need. Im really struggling with just telling them how things are.
That Im scared of eviction. Due to rent arrears. The landlord issue Is very heavy now. Whenever I call to pay the payment doesn't go through.
I feel so lonely and worried.
#Depression #Anxiety

Hi. My name is Cindypp. I am bipolar, have CPTSD and ADHD. I am really just looking for a nontoxic place on the internet to connect with people. I live in a rural area and it is often lonely. I own a business with my husband and we both work from home. My oldest kid will be graduating high school this year. I am very excited for them as they are simply amazing, but it's also a little sad as I do love spending time with my kids. They make me laugh all the time. Right now I am unmedicated. Because I work from home and not out in the real world, I am able to get by without meds. Honestly, I spent most of my life without meds so it's nothing super new though I was medicated for almost 9 years. To calm my brain like to read. I read almost 300 books a year. I absolutely love middle grade literature because it has come so far since I was a kid in the 80s/90s. I also love history books, Black literature, and anything that makes me think. I love learning about new people, new ideas, and other ways of life. Otherwise, I am very scatterbrained and my brain just runs amok. I am involved in an organization that works on women's and girl's rights worldwide which is where my heart is. Below is a picture of my dog, Zora, named after my favorite author, Zora Neale Hurston.

Is anyone awake and wants to chat for a bit? I'm just very lonely and It's my 42nd birthday
My inbox is open. Nothing squicky.
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#happybirthdaytome