Loneliness

I don’t remember his voice anymore. It’s been 112 days now.

It’s been a while since I’ve said anything, mainly because life is busy and I haven’t had anything new to share.

My therapist practically begged me to stay single today and I told her I wouldn’t have to try that hard. I’m lonely but have a strong head on my shoulders.

Don’t get me wrong. Everything hurts still. I miss him. Love him. Worry about him. Wish he’d reach out.

But here we are.

#Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #breakup #Grief

Hi, my name is Abdou.
I am here because of a situation that happened to me because of my illness. I was in a relationship with a girl and she understood me and supported me despite my motor disability, but her sister despised me and made her change towards me. She abandoned me and said that she did not want to see her son in the same condition as me. I mean, I did not ask to be like this. This is what makes me lonely and depressed now.#MightyTogether #Depression

I can’t sleep. I sleep and I wake up and then I can’t sleep again. It is so annoying. My nights are long and lonely and boring.

I am downstairs in the basement in my daughters Harry Potter Booknook staying out of the way of my mother’s cleaning lady. So she can do the floors and surfaces she comes every two weeks because I have a bad back and so does my mom. And both my mom are in remission from Cancer. Well dad might have it again… we are waiting on his results to know for sure.

Anyway we.. me and my doggie Scout are on the couch chilling. Just waiting like two hours for her to finish. So we can go back upstairs. So I am kind of lonely. I can’t work because of the extent of my illness. So I am stuck at home all day long. Alone. It is lonely. And boring. I think I have watched Netflix. lol

I have started watching Prime Video now but I don’t like it as well so I am rewatching some of my favorite movies and shows on Netflix. I really haven’t watched them all just what I am interested in. lol Which is actually quite a lot. I also watch Disney + and Starz and Max it is safe to say I love movies. I watch maybe one or two a day sometimes more in the background just for noise so it isn’t quiet. I play with my dog. Take pictures with my phone I enjoy that very much. I online shop I love that.

I would like to get out of the house, but I have limited mobility so I don’t know how that would work at the moment.

Sending

the warmest of hugs

to those who feel

sad, tired, lonely,

drained, and

empty.

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I'm lonely and bored. I decided not to bake bread today. I meditated for 2 hours. Then I made a naan sandwich and a little salad for lunch. It was yummy. Then I attempted to bag up all the trash in the kitchen and OMG bending down and standing more than 5 minutes destroyed my back. I scurried back to bed and my caregiver asked if I wanted some CBD cream on my back and hips. I took 2 tramadol and got her to goop my back.

I'm craving chocolate and peanut butter covered bacon. It's so good. The best way to make it is to get a bag of chocolate peanut butter cups from Aldi's. Put the unopened bag in a pot of boiling water till they melt. Pour it into a bowl and stir it good. Use precooked bacon. Or cook your own and let it cool off. Dip each slice of bacon in the chocolate and put on parchment. Put in the fridge for about an hour.

My mom can't talk right now cuz she's getting ready for a family reunion. My caregiver is busy working. My other 2 QPP are busy too.

I feel awful. Hopefully in about an hour or so I'll be feeling better.

#MentalHealth #foodieadventures

#southafrica #pretoria

Hallo, are there any members here from South Africa, especially Pretoria? I need to build a support group to share with, but not only online. I am so lonely, with very few people in my life. I don't know where to meet new people, people that are safe to talk to and supportive.
#lonely