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Let me introduce myself
Hello everyone,

I am Luca 25 years old , I am a female. I am suffering from VACTERL association. Furthermore I have got a cystostomy because there was no muscle on my bladder because of that I was incontinence when I was a teenager. I have only one kidney but it is working very well, fortunately. l haven’t got uterus but I have got
ovaries which are working very well as well. However I have got other gynecological problem: because of my cloaca malformation my sexual life is quite difficult actually I am to narrow for anything. My doctors don’t do anything with it. They are completely helpless with me.
About me:
I am a medical student. I like listening to music, reading a book or going to a concert. However I have been single for nearly five years due to my gynaecological problem, and I feel so lonely. I feel like nobody deserve to have me. Furthermore I have got ptsd, depression and panic attack according to my point of view, because the physicians say that I have no mental illness at all.
of course if you have a question about my case I will answer it with pleasure.
I have got an intermediate English exam but I am Hungarian,so if I make a fault in grammar please excuse me. #PTSD #PanicAttack #Vacterl #lonly

Thankfully my experiences on here have been good, but outside this app hasn’t always. I’m sick of being engaging with people who won’t engage with me back, I’ve tried so hard to be a helper in life, but when I get no help back from people it’s hard to understand. I take the time to try and understand others pain, but mostly others don’t take anytime to understand my pain. We should all be pulling each other up and helping each other, life is a two way street. Sorry for the vent, I just feel like I’m always going out of my way to get to know what people struggle with and what there life is like and they confide in me, and very rarely do people ever inquire about my life or my mental illness, maybe I’m just having a little anger flare up today, but it’s just so painful, to always be the one trying to help and rarely have anyone reciprocate and acknowledge what I’m saying or how I’m feeling. #MentalHealth

How to know what I want if I don't know who am I?

#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #hopeless #lonly

I’m an only child I have 5 children of my own, amazing Parents and amazing partner but I feel my children and my self miss out on extended family we have a large family and it felt really close when I was a kid. But now I feel like no one bothers with us. Never get a call to see how we are or happy Birthday or Happy Christmas off any of my aunts uncles cousins and being an only child it makes me so low sometime as I see people with the support of there sisters brothers ect and I feel like an outcast I know this sounds silly. How can I feel so lonely with a large family of my own? Anyone else and only child and feel this? After Christmas Day I was so depressed. And my son was 2 yesterday and today I feel so low apart form his siblings and my parents he’s never got a single card or call from any other family I just wish it was different. #lonly #Wantmoreformychilderen #Hideawayday #Sleepthedayaway #Depressionsufferer #Moregoodthanbaddays #Oneofthemdays

The person whom i prioritised more than myself just left me when I was at my lowest point of life? Should i consider it as my mistake of annoying her?#Relationshipissues