It only took one minute for everything to change. They placed you in my arms , I was no longer myself. I became more, I was your Mom.
It only took one minute to fall so deep in love with you. I was finally holding the baby I had been so eager to meet for 9 months.
It only took one minute of patience to enter into your world. You were always ready to open the door, it was us who needed to find the right key.
It only took one minute to hear you laugh and have it infectiously light up the room.
It only took one minute to listen to you speak and see what an incredibly unique soul you are.
It only took one minute for them to tell me you were gone for my heart to shatter.
It only took one minute for me to understand how important every minute spent with you was a gift I took for granted.
It only takes one minute to start a conversation. Suicide is important to talk to about.
It only takes one minute to ask someone if they are ok. More important it’s ok to not be ok, that’s how we learn how to ask for help.
I would give anything to have any of the “one minute’s “back that I got to have with him.
Tomorrow starts 4yrs of my son being gone. Today I needed to reflect and writing helps with that. These years that have past have not been easy, nor does it ever really get easier. I have just learned more than anything what a moment can truly mean.
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