Psychosis

Hey,
I don’t really know how to start, so I’ll keep it short.

I went through severe depression 4 years ago. I survived multiple suicide attempts. I saw different psychiatrists, but none of them really helped. They just prescribed medications to keep me stable, calm, and able to sleep (I also struggle with insomnia). I was eventually diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

2 years ago, after my last suicide attempt, I was admitted to one of the worst rehab facilities. It felt more like a prison. They kept me sedated with heavy meds just to keep me quiet, and the staff were manipulative, heartless, and abusive. They isolated me, made sure I couldn’t reach anyone. My dad managed to get me out after my sister panicked when they mentioned electroconvulsive therapy.

After I got out, I tried to act like I was okay. But I realized that no one from my old life really cared. Not one of the people I used to spend every single day with noticed I had disappeared for 4 months.

I got a job and met new friends who actually love and care about me, and I care about them deeply too.

My family loves me in their own way, I know that…But ever since my diagnosis, they’ve been emotionally pressuring me to “just be okay.” My mom cries constantly, and my dad just keeps checking if I’ve taken my meds. The moment they sense anything wrong, they panic. So I’ve learned to wear this mask..always pretending I’m fine, just to reassure them.

At the same time, they won’t let me live my life. I’m not allowed to go out with friends, work, go to the gym…even just take a walk. It’s like I’m being punished for not being okay before

But the truth is…I’m not okay. I haven’t been okay for a long time. I still suffer from psychosis and suicidal thoughts.

I’ve tried to go back to therapy, but here in Egypt, proper behavioral therapy doesn’t really exist. All I ever got was medication..no one taught me how to deal with what’s going on inside me.

So I’m asking now: would a life coach help? How do I even find a good one? Because tbh, it feels like this might be my last chance. #BipolarDisorder #MentalHealth

Hi, my name is dearspecialneedsmom. I'm curious about borderline personality disorder in younger teens and celiac psychosis

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Hey,
I don’t really know how to start, so I’ll keep it short.

I went through severe depression 4 years ago. I survived multiple suicide attempts. I saw different psychiatrists, but none of them really helped. They just prescribed medications to keep me stable, calm, and able to sleep (I also struggle with insomnia). I was eventually diagnosed with bipolar disorder.

2 years ago, after my last suicide attempt, I was admitted to one of the worst rehab facilities. It felt more like a prison. They kept me sedated with heavy meds just to keep me quiet, and the staff were manipulative, heartless, and abusive. They isolated me, made sure I couldn’t reach anyone. My dad managed to get me out after my sister panicked when they mentioned electroconvulsive therapy.

After I got out, I tried to act like I was okay. But I realized that no one from my old life really cared. Not one of the people I used to spend every single day with noticed I had disappeared for 4 months.

I got a job and met new friends who actually love and care about me, and I care about them deeply too.

My family loves me in their own way, I know that…But ever since my diagnosis, they’ve been emotionally pressuring me to “just be okay.” My mom cries constantly, and my dad just keeps checking if I’ve taken my meds. The moment they sense anything wrong, they panic. So I’ve learned to wear this mask..always pretending I’m fine, just to reassure them.

At the same time, they won’t let me live my life. I’m not allowed to go out with friends, work, go to the gym…even just take a walk. It’s like I’m being punished for not being okay before

But the truth is…I’m not okay. I haven’t been okay for a long time. I still suffer from psychosis and suicidal thoughts.

I’ve tried to go back to therapy, but here in Egypt, proper behavioral therapy doesn’t really exist. All I ever got was medication..no one taught me how to deal with what’s going on inside me.

So I’m asking now: would a life coach help? How do I even find a good one? Because tbh, it feels like this might be my last chance.

Hi, my name is gita66. I'm looking for how to communicate and create the best environment for a girl 20 years old going through her first time with acute multifaceted psychosis with schizophrenic symptoms.

#MightyTogether

I'm a 6x suicide survivor it occurred approximately once every 2 years from the age of twenty. I used weed to cope with things however my body cant handle the withdrawals and that causes psychosis. in the 5 times that I went into psychosis I ruled out dehydration, caffeine, inadequate rest and the product being laced. I finally accept that it doesn't agree with me, however I feel like the damage is done and I hope my brain can heal from all the trauma. I have severe disassociation, however my long term memory is unimpaired - my brain is just kind of tuned out in the present most of the time, it's a natural trauma response. My last breakdown was a few months back. I would love to become a mental healthcare advocate and share my story but there isn't many places where that is allowed.

My therapist says she cannot give me the support i need yet when l asked the Gp for psychiatric support like a psychiatric nurse they said I could can keep myself safe. I feel so let down I really do! I’m hearing voices, intrusive thoughts, seeing hallucinations (demons etc) it’s so terrifying! I even saw my dead biological father too and he died years ago! I was so scared! I really need to go back to the doctors and tell them I need the support now because of this. My therapist says she cannot offer the expertise or training unfortunately. It’s so sad as she’s so lovely too. I’ve had her for years.
If it wasn’t for my cat I would end it all! She’s the reason why I’m still breathing bless her! #Depression #Psychosis
#Anxiety

Hi, my name is solo_crow. I'm here because I'm on the last frayed nerve and it's snapping. I'm sooo exhausted. usa mental health industry has made things worse...
I guess I should rant in a room that's meant for this. I miss smiling. laughter is a fading memory. laughter is more like folklore.
#MightyTogether #Depression #Migraine #PTSD #Grief #Cancer #Psychosis

Well it's been another year since my last post, not sure why but so far I haven't had any episodes this year. So if I only show up annually, it would certainly be worth celebrating especially if I can keep this up.

Hi, my name is vin080225. I'm here because
my young adult son suffered drug induced psychosis he’s delusions and paranoia included that I had abused and harmed him as a child he was sectioned for 28 days and had has now become estranged.. he sent me messages saying that I abused him as a child he reported me to the police. still after 8 weeks of psychosis he still believes these delusions - I’m completely heartbroken
#MightyTogether

I want to be a gentle supportive partner
He’s currently experiencing psychosis symptoms
I’ve seen him go through it before and it was in and out of the hospital for 1-2 months
this time it’s less suicidal tendencies which is amazing and I’m grateful to know he’s safe
But some of his actions and some of the things he’s saying to me are exstremly inconsiderate and hurtful
Examples he downloaded a dating app and then promised me he’d never cheat on me and has been telling me that his ex is meant to be in his life still (something like that)

How would you feel?
I’m genuinely asking anyone who reads this because personally
I feel disrespected and angry and just adding to the depression I’m already struggling with

I know that he is not himself right now
But it doesn’t make things hurt less
I’ve been trying to keep my cool and be here for him

But I have no idea what to do
The implosiveness is hard to keep up with
Constant cleaning and making sure nothing is set in fire

There has been so much age regression and I am lost on what I’m supposed to do

Any insight or advice is appreciated !

#BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Addiction #Advice #Psychosis