Mania

Hi, my name is UncleJoe3. I'm here because manic depression :(

#MightyTogether #Depression

Lately, I’ve been feeling a bit confused. I recently went to see a clinical psychologist to reassess my diagnosis — to see if it was accurate, or if maybe there’s something else going on. Previously, I had been diagnosed with mixed anxiety-depressive disorder and dependent personality disorder. More recently, another psychologist told me she thinks I may have depressive personality traits rather than depression itself.

And I’ve also been wondering whether ADHD might be part of the picture — that’s actually what pushed me to seek another opinion. I try really hard not to self-diagnose, even though I often relate strongly to things I read or hear online. That’s exactly why I wanted a professional assessment instead of trusting my own assumptions.

But when I explained my symptoms to the clinical psychologist, she even considered the possibility of bipolar disorder, although not with fully expressed manic episodes. So now I feel even more confused than before.

One of the reasons I started questioning my diagnosis is that medication has never worked well for me. I’ve tried different types, but the side effects were often worse than the benefits. I thought that maybe I’ve been treating the wrong thing all along, or missing an important part of the picture.

Has anyone else been through something similar? How do you cope with the uncertainty when even professionals give you different answers?

#Depression #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #ADHD

Hi, my name is runixcube. I've been diagnosed with ADHD, and I had clinical depression in the past. I also had a binge eating disorder for the last couple of years, and I still have emotional bonds with food.

Even though I tick all the boxes for having BPD, the time intervals in which I experience mania and depression arent long enough to be diagnosed. But that doesnt mean im not struggling. I'm no professional, but I know that if its enough to affect my lifestyle then its a problem. So I want to learn more about it.

I really dont know what else to write. I wish everyone well. I hope you all are having a good day, and if you arent, i hope your day turns out good later on, or i hope tomorrow is better than today.
#MightyTogether #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ADHD #EatingDisorder

I have been manic for a long, long while. It all started with me witnessing a suicide 53 days ago. I was on my was to work and when I was about halfway there, I saw someone falling off a bridge just as their body hit the ground. I let out a gasp and my son asked what was wrong. I played it off and told him it was just a bird. I didn't want to alarm him. He laughed it off and agreed. I was shocked and my first instinct was to text my best friend, husband and my team. I was shaking, second-guessing what I saw and driving erratically. When I got to school (I am a kindergarten teacher), I convinced myself that I could work. I tried to keep my emotions in check. I convinced myself I was fine until my best friend came in to check on me, gave me a hug and brought me an energy drink. That's when I felt the first sign of emotion start to leak out. When she left, I could feel the nerves slowly starting to hit me. I continued to try and tell myself everything was going to be okay and that I could make it through the day. But once the bell rang and the kids started to swarm in, my eyes welled up and I immediately knew I was not going to make it. I told my co-teacher I needed to go to the bathroom. I ran to the bathroom and started to lose it. During this time, I texted some close friends and told them I was losing it. My co-teacher called our principal at this time because she worried about me without my knowledge. When I finally thought I calmed down enough, I made my way outside and my principal was outside waiting. She tried to console me but I could not stand the thought of being hugged and dodged her hugs. We eventually made it to the office where one of the office ladies sat with me until husband came. The next two days were a blur. I stayed in bed, slept and watched a lot of scary movies and ate a ton of junk food.

A little before I started Vrylar, I remember my mania started. It started with the impulsive purchases for the house like the expensive fan (over $100), then the air fryer AND microwave at the same. Curtains (that I didn't need) nightlights that I didn't need), curtain rods (that I didn't need), random subscriptions and so much more. This started around mid February, right after witnessing the suicide and has continued to now. The mania started small which is normal for me and when I got on Vraylar on 4/25, it has gotten more extreme. Some extreme things I have done are deciding one morning that I wanted a tattoo and in a matter of a few hours going to get one. Deciding one day that I wanted to color my hair then booking an appointment for the same day (this was in the same week) It has gotten to to the point that I am so erratic, I sometimes don't even know myself anymore and that other people have taken notice. Some people have said I am more hyper than usual and another said that they have noticed that I am stressed. It makes me embarrassed to think that despite me trying to put out a happy and jolly front, people can see right through me. I am worried that I will get admitted soon. My psychiatrist is seeing me every 3 days and has mentioned bringing my husband into my care...

Sorry for the long post.... It's just been a really long bout of mania and I feel like absolute crap. I want to get better and I hope that I am coming out of the mania now... #Bipolar2

I’ts been three years now since last post .. I don’t know if my feelings and mood is stable or not but the way i feel now I think that iam stable !
It’s weird because i never thought that i will ever be in this place, I always felt that this disorder define me and i will always be sick.
But now this time i feel diffrent like there’s something changed in me. I no longer feel upset or depressed neither happier or mania, i feel like my brain fainally quiet there’s no any chaos anymore.
Is this a good sign or I’m just hallucinating?
#Bipolar1 #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #Manic #MentalHealth

I’ts been three years now since last post .. I don’t know if my feelings and mood is stable or not but the way i feel now I think that iam stable !
It’s weird because i never thought that i will ever be in this place, I always felt that this disorder define me and i will always be sick.
But now this time i feel diffrent like there’s something changed in me. I no longer feel upset or depressed neither happier or mania, i feel like my brain fainally quiet there’s no any chaos anymore.
Is this a good sign or I’m just hallucinating?
#Bipolar1 #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #Manic #MentalHealth

I was wondering if anyone feels like i do? About once a week i will get into a dysphoric manic episode. I will have intensely disturbing emotions that eventually tornado out of control. They get to a point where i feel like dropping to my knees, scream in pain and anger so loudly the world shakes, then punch my fists into the ground and rip the planet into pieces.
Its intense i know. I will feel better if im not the only one that gets this way.#BipolarDisorder #MentalHealth

Hello, I had my first heavy manic/depressive episode in January that landed me in a mental health facility. Since then, I have been on medication that I take at the same time every morning with breakfast. However, I still get anxious about it. It's not that I fear going back to the hospital, I fear going manic and being in danger and getting hurt before I can get help. Bipolar disorder does run on both sides of my family, so I do have family members like my dad and grandmother to talk to about it. But I find I tend to get anxious in the mornings even when I've slept well because I worry if today is the day I swing back and land myself in danger (I live in an apartment with two roommates who were mostly absent when the episode happened, but knew I was in the hospital). How do you guys cope with the fear of mania or even depression?