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Gorilla and the Bird by Zack McDermott

Gorilla and the Bird is Zack McDermott’s honest and deeply personal memoir about his struggle with bipolar disorder. At the height of his career as a public defender, Zack experiences a severe psychotic episode that changes his life. The book explores his battle with mental illness, the chaos of his manic and depressive episodes, and the unwavering love and support from his mother, who becomes his anchor through the darkest times. With raw honesty and moments of humor, the memoir shines a light on the realities of living with a serious mental health condition and the power of family in healing.

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Uterine cancer n no treatment

I had a partial hysterectomy with an oophorectomy (removal of both ovaries)yet I still have one left... I went into “instant” surgical menopause. I was diagnosed in 2018 with a very rare form of uterine cancer. Which means usually full hysterectomy and most likely also losing my ovaries and fallopian tubes. However the DR I went to was very stupid in my defense. Anyways they found my tumour and it was a huge 15cm x 30cm in size and they removed that along with 1 ovary,and tube. Then during labor with last kid I begged for a C-section in which my request was ignored and I had a uterine prolapse . Drs told me by 2028 if left untreated the cancer would very much likely spread through out my body and possibly kill me. I'm not living my best life by no means but I'm 34 have 4 children living one stillbirth 3 boys 2girls. Yet I'm very thankful to have lived this long. I'm scared to go get seen about as I think it's better left unknown I already fight depression n manic bipolar I just can't take no more bad news and I don't think treatment would be any help any advice

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4:30 am

These past few weeks, I’ve been knocking myself out to get my house in order inside and outside. Two things have really helped. One is taking “before” and “after” photos. The other is listening to music on my earbuds. Somehow I never discovered how much music helps people get things done.

Tuesday night, I worked on my basement from 11 pm to 4 am. Earlier in the day, I donated a lot of items stored down there: three artificial Christmas trees, 24 pillows, 13 blankets, a rug, a shower curtain, and some clothes. We had plans to go out of town Wednesday, and my son is coming for a weeklong visit starting Friday. I wanted to get the cleaning out of the way while I had the motivation.

Problem was, I could not wind down. At 4:30 am, I found myself hanging things on the wall in my living room that I found in the basement. I’m sure some of it was fueled by mania. I just want to be consistent, not extreme in energy fluctuation. Does anyone have tips for pacing one’s self while still accomplishing goals?

So, since I was delirious and couldn’t find a candle, I got a wall sconce ready for the prom. What can I say? It’s yellow. And I finally fell asleep at 5 am.

#Bipolar #Depression #GAD #OCD #PTSD

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I’m new here!

Hello, I’m Adia.

My life has recently started falling apart again, so I’m hoping that I’ll be able to find some sort of support!

Im having serious familial and housing issues right now and I’m finding it difficult to cope. I’m living with my dad at the moment (who was an alcoholic and abusive, he’s cleaned up for now but he has Bipolar Disorder and he tends to relapse when he’s manic) and my younger siblings. My mom is basically homeless now.

Im supposed to be starting college soon, and I don’t know what to do. I want to be there to support my siblings and my family, but I also desperately want to get out. I feel like I’m not even my own person anymore.

In general I find it hard to hold down jobs, to keep friends. My life is collapsing and I feel pretty hopeless.

Any support would be wonderful. I just want to know it’s not too late for me.

#MajorDepressiveDisorder #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #ADHD #MentalHealth #MightyTogether

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Do people accuse you of being manic just because you are passionate about something? #Bipolar #PTSD

My son loves me. I know he does. And he knows that I love him too. We have a really good relationship and we both try to be supportive of each other.

Although we don’t live near each other, we talk on the phone quite frequently about all kinds of things. When I’m having an episode, he listens and tries to help me though it. He can often tell within the first few words what is going on. So great! And I have asked him to tell me when I’m getting manic because I don’t always recognize it right away. (I can always tell when I’m depressed.)

But sometimes , I am just being passionate or angry or exited about something with reason. Then he might tell me that I’m getting manic and try to calm me down. I know he’s doing it from a good place. I tell him I have regular emotions too. It’s ok if I get excited or angry or sad when things are happening. Other non-bipolar people do too! But he won’t let it go unless I stop talking completely. It’s super frustrating and a little hurtful at the same time.

Does this happen to you? Do people assume you are having an episode if you express any emotions?

#BipolarDisorder

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Bipolar & Psychosis: The Voices in My Head #BipolarDisorder #Psychosis #Hallucinations #SchizoaffectiveDisorder

Good morning, I hope you’re doing well today and you have a wonderful week ahead.

I am diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder and Psychosis. Here is an account of an episode where I was hearing voices. I initially posted it on my blog so I’ve edited it to make sure it is compressible to read.

Looking back a few months ago now, I had two episodes were I was hearing the voices in my head once again. Nothing sinister or anything like that, nor a command to do anything detrimental. Literally the situation was that I walked up to the pub about 1pm each day to me a friend. I had my MP3 player (I know they went out of fashion years ago), and I just use the right earphone as I’m deaf in my left ear. So, I was beginning to hear chatter. Nothing clearly but it was like I was in a pub or restaurant or something like that and I could hear the conversations of the people around me. It doesn’t worry me, or scare me as I’ve experienced this before, I have had these voices from years and years ago and to me at least, I know they aren’t dangerous to me or sinister. So I even took my hearing aid out of my left ear to see if they were coming through that, but no, I was still hearing them. I got to the pub and then turned off MP3 player and then chatting with my friend and then it all stopped. I walked home afterwards though and then it started again.

A few days later I had to collect my prescription from Mountcroft (Mental Health Resource Centre) for extra Quetiapine. So I met a mate near my house and we walked up to the promenade by the sea front and then to the next town where the Resource Centre is, and I collected the script. No voices at all.

So at the time I was then on 750mg per day of Quetiapine! 250mg when I get up and 500mg before bed! (Update: The Quetiapine didn’t work and it was discontinued in favour of Olanzapine)

I’ve noticed that I think it is more prevalent when I was silent in my mind and the thoughts weren’t racing when it happens. Basically when I’m Bipolar Manic I have too much going on to hear the voices.
It’s crazy isn’t it that I have now experienced a new scenario. I would try to see if it would happen if I had both earphones in my ears, but as I said I cut the left earphone off as it was redundant. After spending a small fortune on earphones over the years I’m not spending any more money on another set! 🤣

I wish I could have a way to record my voices and then be able to put them together in a download or something like that so people can have a listen to my voices and then they can get a better understanding of what it is like to have mental illness.

#MightyTogether #MentalHealth

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Feel like my old self when manic

I don’t drink anymore for the last 2 years (wasn’t a heavy drinker B4) , but since I’m around an Authentic new friend. I feel comfortable enough to be ALL of myself. I haven’t felt that way since I lost my best friend’s since 1987 in 2021 to covid. I’m Black , American & Haitian. He’s White & Australian. Thanks to him I released my first fully mixed & mastered song since the early 1990’s. Although it’s a cover song, it has pulled me back into the empowered mode, that I forgot existed or felt like. I’m drinking Gran Marnier & don’t like Cognac, but started drinking it with an old friend Hank, who I was at work with when 9/11 happened & his mother was running down the steps of tower 2. Luckily she made it. I have experienced so much in this world, traveling & just living, it’s movie worthy (so I’ve been told). I’m just grateful that The Mighty exists & is the only place I can be myself 100% of the time, regardless of what state I’m in. Love y’all. 💯💚

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Confused about my diagnosis

Lately, I’ve been feeling a bit confused. I recently went to see a clinical psychologist to reassess my diagnosis — to see if it was accurate, or if maybe there’s something else going on. Previously, I had been diagnosed with mixed anxiety-depressive disorder and dependent personality disorder. More recently, another psychologist told me she thinks I may have depressive personality traits rather than depression itself.

And I’ve also been wondering whether ADHD might be part of the picture — that’s actually what pushed me to seek another opinion. I try really hard not to self-diagnose, even though I often relate strongly to things I read or hear online. That’s exactly why I wanted a professional assessment instead of trusting my own assumptions.

But when I explained my symptoms to the clinical psychologist, she even considered the possibility of bipolar disorder, although not with fully expressed manic episodes. So now I feel even more confused than before.

One of the reasons I started questioning my diagnosis is that medication has never worked well for me. I’ve tried different types, but the side effects were often worse than the benefits. I thought that maybe I’ve been treating the wrong thing all along, or missing an important part of the picture.

Has anyone else been through something similar? How do you cope with the uncertainty when even professionals give you different answers?

#Depression #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #ADHD

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