meds

Hi
Warning-
Nothing positive here. I just need to B*tch . Something abt putting my thoughts out to where other ppl may see them is a step above bitching to myself.
I feel like I hav no rt to complain. I feel hesitant to say anything at all. My daughter has ripped my head off abt me expressing my feelings to her- & now when i tread with trepidation around her, she verbalizes that i must hav PTSD from my sisters!!
This from the girl who literally screamed inches from my face- "Are u F*cking Crazy???!" Or "You're a self obsessed Narcissist"- me who spent my career in the helping fields.
This young woman who, after begging me to tell her if i ever felt suicidal- left me- after I mustered the ooomph to tell her I Was Suicidal, to go pour coffee at a Barrista job. This same girl who refused me sleeping on her couch when i was evacuated out of my home for 19 days due to Wildfires. This same girl who left me when I was afraid I might OD on some hash oil a friend had given me for insomnia. - when I was too messed up to move or use a phone- much less find a phone. This woman who threatened to leave me places, miles from home, never bothered to even call when i was stuck in 5 feet of snow in the mountains, with no heat for 12 days- this girl who has repeatedly stolen from me, gaslighted me, bullied me, lied about me- & destroyed the relationship between my son & I- THIS GIRL- Now suddenly loves her Mom????

I call BullShit- & just another set up to be kicked in the teeth.

She has destroyed my Family & very nearly Me- & she denies every last bit.

NOW she just had her 1st daughters birth. Of course I was there all thru it- but really it's the same old story-

It Hurts. & there are NO good answers.

Thanks to her, my son has nothing to do with me. He also gaslights & bullies if he's able.

As a Mom, I feel like I cant win. Anyone who hasnt been on the sidelines directly either Accuses me of being a. Monster Mom- or being a mealy mouthed Wallflower.

I assure you I am neither. But Im done defending or explaining myself to Anyone-

I dont know if the Gashing Wound thru my Heart- caused by my children's Cruelty, Indifference & lack of Love, Empathy or Concern will ever stop gushing Blood- much less heal.

AND NOW- the Ultimate Actress "doesn't remember" any of the truly horrific things she's said & done & wants to play "Devoted Daughter."

Well thing is, I DO Remember. The Wounds are still there. Some days it's hard to just breathe In & Out-

Like I said, nothin positive in my post today- but I just needed to "say it out loud" if u will- to somebody- AI, Virtual or whatever.

1. We're changing my topomax to zonegran. She wasn't surprised when I said I was having memory gaps and losing days and grasping for words.

2. I told her about the new diagnosis of exotropia and she said it was possible that it's the cause of the migraines.

3. I told her about my adjustment disorder. She knows I have a lot of medical issues going on at the same time. She was very sympathetic and supportive.

4. I'm gonna take the zonegran for one month and then I am going to get occipital nerve block. We want to know how my body handles the meds first.

5. When we were waiting for the doctor, I noticed that my right boob hurt kinda bad so I quickly took a peek. I had a pretty big abscess. So I waited until I got home and I attempted to gently pop it... And OMG it shot everywhere! I didn't have any toilet paper so I called out for pauley and she brought me a roll. She asked me if I popped it and I showed her. She said I should wait an hour and pop it again.

#Migraine #meds #AdjustmentDisorder

Migraine medicine:

I was taken off sumatriptan and put on eletriptan and ubrelvy.

BP/HR meds:

I was taken off losartan and lasix. My dose of diltiazem was doubled.

Edited to add:

Diabetic meds:

We're changing one of my insulin but I don't know which one. And my insurance requires a PA but I messaged my doctor 2 days ago and haven't heard back.

#meds

Hello I have gotten off opiates like 3 months now , I have picked up a habit of beer an pot it helps a bit with my pain and my mental issues well i remember what caused them 😢 .
Thing is the mixing I don’t got opiates but alcohol, marijuana, and other pills some prescription some otc . I do want the things I use to help me fell better but I also fear they will hurt me or fast forward me to dead . It’s awful. Specially when I’m in pain and want or need relief for a while if I can get those things I’ll use them I will fill guilt after an scared but I like it when I’m not feel much pain and can just be or hangout sometimes even do stuff . What’s your opinion? And are you like me , can you relate ?
Hello 👋 out there strangers

Missing appointments meetings volunteering the list goes on wait we had a list we had IT booked we even new IT was coming up. #meds where were we yesterday. Oh right we felt sick 🤢 and was having a hard time with executive functioning and well overall functioning.

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So the doc prescribes lyrica for a CFS, which is to give energy and this is day three and this medication has me fucked up…… it has me feeling the same symptoms I get with my IIH I have no idea how I’m supposed to get energy with this I can barely walk. It makes my brain foggy. I don’t understand this. Who else has experienced this? Arghhh

I have a past due balance at my doc of over $100, but have been out of my anxiety meds for several weeks now. I only take these as needed, and the last few days my anxiety has been through the roof and making me physically ill. I reached out on the messaging on their website and asked for a temporary refill (10 days or so) because I had an panic attack last night and am physically sick from anxiety. They are requiring me to make an appt for a med check (that I’ve been on for years)..but in order to make that appt; I need to first pay the past due balance. Which I can’t afford right now. I FEEL SO STUCK. And it’s not helping my anxiety.
I’m not sure what to do but I feel overwhelmed and physically ill from it. Like a boulder in my stomach. What can I do? 😫😫 #Anxiety #meds #help

I just love these little games my health insurance plays every so often since my doctor raised my Gabapentin for my Fibromyalgia to the highest dose of 3,600 mg a day many months ago. When I go to call it in, they won’t fill it for another ten days. This leaves me over a week with no meds, terribly ill, and at great risk for seizures. Not a med you can cold turkey without paying the consequences. When they will fill it in ten days, they will only fill 90 pills. I currently take 12 of them a day. Obviously, this does not add up at all. This is a last resort Fibro med as I did not do well on the others and had heavy side effects with them. I’ve been trying to be better at advocating for my own health this year but I’m just not getting anywhere with it. Any Fibro Warriors out there have any advice for me? Have done Cymbalta and Lyrica. Also have had gastric sleeve surgery at then end of 2021. Suffer from migraines, Bipolar II, depression, anxiety, PCOS, arthritis, and my thyroid bounces around all over the place as well. I am on Disability and on state insurance. I am open to any advice! Thank you!! #Fibromyalgia #meds #treatments #Neuropathy #MultipleDisabilities