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So true 😊. What is the meaning of beauty for you? Do you agree with this statement?

Being yourself can be easy and very hard at the same time. When I stopped the masquerade everyone disappeared like smoke. I lost many but I also found some hidden gems that made my life shine again. I'm really grateful and I treasure their friendship.
Today I met up with my friend Jojo in a game online and it was super nice and fun eheh
I asked him: "Do you know that you are actually really sweet Jojo? I'm really happy to have you as my friend. You are awesome eheh".
His response was confusion 🤣 ahahah (I love him ahahah). He is on the scale of autism and he really can't understand emotions or socialize in person. Compliments for him are confusing things and he don't know what to say when I say things like that but he knows I mean it so he replied with 2 hugs emojis 😊 ( he knows those make me smile).
We have been friends for a year plus now and I'm super happy I found another gem 💎. He can be himself with me and I can be fully myself with him. He accepts me as I am and this is rare for me eheh.

"Everything has beauty, but not everyone can see it". (Confucius)

#quoteoftheday #Happyday #Beauty #haveaniceday #Goodmorning #Friendship #gems #muchlove #positivethoughts #Anxiety #Depression #MentalHealth

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Holidays and #DissociativeIdentityDisorder

To preface this, I invite you to take the time to invest in yourself: if you feel uncomfortable talking about h*lidays, then skip this post. I'm not in this for views. I'm in this for my health, and validating the experiences of others. That said, I'm gonna be real, and raw. No cussing, cuz I want people to enjoy the read without being too triggered, but real nonetheless.
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So, Thanksgiving... great time of year. I'm serious! Lots of fun times, lots of foooood. Yum... I'm a sucker for cranberry sauce from a can. Yep. I said it.

Also, lots of memories. Some great. Some good. Some not-so great. I learned about my DID on Dissociative Identity Disorder Awareness Day on 2018. Freaking joy, lemme tell you: two months of fear and questions came down to something I assumed made me a monster (thanks Split). But here's the thing. A lot of my disorder came from my upbringing. It came from a specific source I'm not going to name, because I'm about healing, not inflicting hurt publicly on those who did me wrong.

During the holidays, I see my fam. I see friends. The person that got me started on this path (for great, good, and bad) is there. And I love them. I hate them. I also recognize the choices this person has made has affected each of my siblings and our decisions for how we present ourselves to others.

DID isn't a joke. It's not a game. It's a suppression of negative feelings in order to deal with present negative circumstances. Your brain switches gears for a while, allowing your conscious mind to step back while your unconscious mind creates a persona that is better suited to solve the problems you face. At times, it's liberating and freeing and a tribute to the power of our minds. At other times, it's the most difficult thing you'll ever experience. Imaging talking to a dear friend about something heavy, something hard, and you want to support them, but suddenly you don't remember the last 15 minutes and all your friend can tell you is "Thanks for listening!" Yeah, great, they feel good, but the thought comes 'where was I for that? Did I really support you?'

So, when I get to the holidays and get around this person (acutally, these people, because it's more than one), I see the good, the bad, the great and the ugly. I cycle through my different identities like a prize wheel. My wife made efforts to ground me. Holding my hand. Touching me. Helping me be present when I started isolating and spacing out. I love her.

Here's my point, y'all: You have the RIGHT to pursue those that make your life a heaven, not a hell. But if you feel you are in a good place to reconsile your past, do it. Do it deliberately, not by accident, and not by aggression, but by the choice to analyze those bridges, and to decide in the most healthy way possible if those bridges really do need to be burnt. Mine don't. I'm happy for that. Also, find the person who will support you in your battles, not fight them for you, because YOU are strong. #muchlove

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New mighty member!! Hey everyone wanted to say heyyy! #Anxiety #BipolarDisorder #PTSDWarrior

I can’t wait to connect with some of you and have real people who can relate to real world problems. Lately my anxiety is horrible. And I think I need to go back on medications for my anxiety. I’m on my other regular meds.. it’s been a tough year. Where is everyone from? I’ll start. I’m 34 from Albuquerque, NM USA 🇺🇸🙌🏽🌵🏜🌻💚 #muchlove

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I know life isn't easy...but why does it have to be so hard?

Struggle is part of life. I know this. I LIVE THIS. I get it. I'm not asking for my life to be easy, perfect, or like a dream by any means. All I need is for it to be BEARABLE for the people I love who I'm trying to raise into young ladies and to survive the horrible luck of the draw genetically.
My teen has  #BipolarDisorder specifically #Bipolar1 and she is stuck in a manic state and only getting worse Almost into a psychosis while I work the phones contacts doctors anyone trying to find her a suitable inpatient facility for 14 year old adolescents who don't take pedophiles in the building next door She's also very violent right now and taking it out on me and my #Fibromyalgia is not happy at all I am exhausted both mentally and physically Her younger sister has managed to stay out of her path due to her school schedule thank God But I really could use your prayers right now to get her a placement this week please and to have my ex-husband quit fighting me about the birth control implant that she so desperately needs She is completely out of control and he cannot see that with only seeing her 4 days a month Sad I'm trying to stay positive Thank you for listening #muchlove  -D

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