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    Why do I sometime feel like a child stuck inside an adult body ? : how can I overcome such intense feelings of nostalgia?

    Do you also have the feeling that no matter how hard you try, no matter how successful you are, the amount of money you have, good health, therapy...that you will always feel empty, like something is missing ? And that the piece will never be found and that you may just as well give up ?

    Depressions, anxieties, and childhood traumas apart, whatever they are...I feel like there is something I will actually never recover from. It is a certain feeling that is very hard to express with words. I don't think I will be able to talk about it with my psychiatrist, and yet I should try because it causes me so much sadness.

    It is a feeling of extreme nostalgia, I feel like a child that's been put in an adult body with no instruction manual. I can't seem to fonction like people of my age. I don't look and I don't act like people my age. I constantly live in the past, remembering childhood memories every day all day since I've hit my 20's (now 24). Almost like a prison sentence, like the child is still there. I even began to collect objects/toys from my childhood.

    I miss this so bad, I had my environnement, my surroundings, my friends, I just can't seem to let it go...

    The reality of adulthood is shocking to me.

    I constantly feel like each day bring me closer to my end ? I don't my futur past the end of the week. Everything must happen so fast now, and I struggle to keep track, I feel so behind compare to everyone. It's near impossible for me to create any form of relationships. My reality now is dull, boring and lonely. And If even as a grow older, I begin to slowly tick more boxes (good work, good situation, mariage even...), I don't think that I will ever get rid of that feeling, and It will be all just pretending to be "normal".

    I want to thank the few people that might read this. I am also curious to know if this feeling is familiar to some of you.

    #Depression #nostalgia #Childhood #Trauma #Anxiety #MentalHealth #sa

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    Hello, I’m here because I need support and resources to start to heal. I have been dealing with depression and c-ptsd for what feels like all my life. I was recently SA only two days ago and this is the fourth time in my life this has happened to me. I’m still in shock but also numbness and figured it would be best not to be alone and try to get to a good place. #Abuse #sa #SexualAssault #Survivor

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    ***TW: mentions of SA and r@pe****

    I'm sitting at my desk, staring at my screen, my chest tightening and my seemingly endless headache droning on. I feel anxious, I feel alone, I am waiting for someone to write, for a little notification to appear. The only comfort I can find to distract myself is music, but it hurts my head more, so I have to sit in silence.

    I am not a very introverted person: I have my group of friends, I have family, I go to school, and I work, yet I feel as though I have no one. I feel betrayed, as though they don't actually care. For once, I think this feeling is justified. This summer I was working at a small winery in the mountains, and it was an incredible experience. I got to work alongside friends of mine in the fields, in nature. The last night I was there, we went out drinking and to karaoke. **TW** My "friend" ended up walking me home "so I could be safe", but instead forced himself into my room and r@ped me. He did this the night before I left, so I know it was planned. This was in June. When I got home, I couldn't get myself to tell anyone. After around a month, I ended up telling my dad, and he said he was sorry I went through that, but it was part of life and asked if I was wearing anything revealing. He said that when I look like this, it was inevitable. I tried telling my very close friend, but he ghosted me. I have tried bringing it up with my other friend, but she was uncomfortable and asked me why I didn't fight back and take legal action (I am living in a country where the legal system is very hard to navigate, especially for cases like this). I feel so alone, and betrayed. I am surrounded by people, but I am getting no support. I am trying to continue going through life taking care of my sister, working, studying, being happy and acting like everything is fine but it's not. I feel betrayed that someone could take advantage of my trust in such a horrible way. I feel abandoned by my friend who left me when I needed him the most. I feel like I want to hide, I can't trust anyone anymore. I just want someone to tell me they love me, it's ok, it's not my fault. I want someone to not judge and persecute me or leave me to deal with things all alone. I want someone to care. I always end up dealing with things alone, this is not the first time I have been hurt, and whenever I break down, I am called "lazy". Not only that, but I have to deal with all sorts of family and money issues, as well as worry about my grandma's health...I'm tired.

    Just a little rant, haven't been on here for a while. I hope you are all doing well, and remember to remind the people in your life that they are loved. Love one another, love your community, and remember that even though the world seems to be getting meaner, doesn't mean there isn't kindness out there.

    #Depression #Trauma #Anxiety #sa #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Stress #lonely


    Why was my article removed?

    I recently wrote a post on the mighty pertaining to a negative experience I had with tiktok and Instagram.

    It was about being s*xually harassed while on live, and the perpetrator not being punished while I was banned for 3 days.

    Why was this article removed? Why am I not allowed to share my story with PROOF of what this man said so I’m not accused of lying? Why is the mighty now silencing my story?

    As survivor of SA, s*xual harassment is just as much of a problem. It’s the beginning of what becomes SA. The fact men are being let off the hook with NO repercussions is disgusting. Especially when the people being hurt by it (ie: victim/survivor) are the ones being punished for speaking up.

    What do you have to say about this Mighty writers? #sa


    how do i deal with a gf who is distancing from me and I feel so #sa


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