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    Can dog owners answer this??? | TW dog aggressiveness, mentions of bites, family

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    We’ve been petsitting a dog for like 2 months. I’ve just been around him yesterday. I always see him everyday. He’s 2 years old and a Chow Chow, if that helps. I was close to him yesterday and just petted him yesterday and it was fine. Sometimes, he’d walk up to me to say hi, and it was fine.

    This month, he has bit me twice (nothing serious, just a scratch) once when I was walking up to him just to say hi (and I usually do that until he bit me one time), and once when I was trying to move around him. When I was walking up to him this morning (it wasn’t even going to be that close because I was being cautious), he started running up to me aggressively as if he was going to bite me. He did this another time this month, too.

    This has only happened to me. Well, he acted aggressive towards my mother once, but most have happened to me. Do dogs just not want to like certain individuals?? Was he just in a bad mood?? Why does he not like me??

    And of course, because I’m autistic, it makes me sad and even scared, especially since my sister (the main petsitter) is moving and getting married meaning the dog is likely to stay a few more months until they move. I know I shouldn’t take it personally and that he’s just a dog, but this has only happened to me and the fourth time he’s been aggressive with me when we see each other literally everyday. I’m so confused and so is everyone else.

    #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #dog #Family #confused #question #petsitting

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    The risk of being overstimulated inside vs the risk of being misgendered as a binary gender (most often female) outside | TW swearing, some all caps

    Also TW For misgendering and breakdowns
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    This is why life is so goddamn hard when the kids are home. Why? Just fucking why? Children high-pitch noises upset me (I live with my sister and her 2 kids) but I despise being misgendered as a girl. I’m non-binary, damn it! It’s like no matter how OBVIOUS I try to make it, they still mistake me as a lady. 😡 As someone with severe social dysphoria, it doesn’t help. At all. It leads to breakdowns 100% of the time now.

    Thanks, America /sarc /neg /nbh

    #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #why #nonbinary #imnonbinary #GenderDysphoria #Life #Family #venting #TriggerWarnings

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    Dear society, just because someone looks overweight doesn’t mean they instantly have health problems | it’s hard being healthy… I have a lot going on

    TW Mentions of fat-shaming, swearing, bugs, some all caps, misgendering, exclusionism #venting
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    Seriously, why does this damn society seem to think that just because you look overweight instantly leads to believing they have health problems or the only ones capable of health problems? You can look skinny, or average, or look really healthy (even have a bunch of muscles!) and can - still - have health problems regarding weight or how you eat.

    Now I’m remembering someone in 2018 who just came up to me and was very kind and told me their way of how they lost weight. I was just sitting there, minding my own business. I thought that they were being very nice and just giving advice, and now I feel like a fucking fool because it was JUST BECAUSE I LOOKED OVERWEIGHT!

    Today, it honestly doesn’t help that when I’m told how I should eat or exercise, I get imposter syndrome all over again. I’m an adult. I already suffer from anxiety and despise this ridiculous judgemental ignorant world. I know I’m overweight. When I’ve had enough of life, I have the urge for comfort food. I know what I’m eating isn’t really that healthy, I admit that, and I’ve always TOLD myself that I should eat healthy, not to look skinnier, but to at least be healthier, and had even made plans to cut out some thing I should eat.…it’s hard. I have a lot of shit going on right now. Does society even understand that?!

    I’m already stressed that the weather is already getting warmer here than I like, which means more bugs (flies, gnats) and possibly fleas again, so I’m trying to plan the best way to make this problem not so irritating including doing things that my sister continuously says that I shouldn’t do which also fucking irritates me to max (tying the garbage bags… it keeps the gnats away and I even SAID that I’ll buy more bags for us). Last summer was horrible and I do NOT want it to come. Spring is also about to betray me as well.

    I am non-binary and have severe social gender dysphoria and hate being misgendered as a fucking “she”, which means I mostly stay inside all the time because of how painful it is.

    I suffer from trust issues because of how much the world is a piece of garbage. “Cringe” this, “snowfl*king” that, “faking” this, seriously. Why.

    My sister’s kids are on spring break and their loud footsteps irritate my autism whether or not I like to admit that.. trying to not to seem like I hate them (which I don’t, I love them!!). And all I’m trying to do is to get myself CALM.

    Those are just four things. There are many more I can list. So even trying to be healthy is a struggle either because of poor mental health or that I’ve given up at that moment. I want to live… but it’s to eat healthy or exercise because of all of this crap. Does society even understand that?!

    #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Fatshaming #fat #Overweight #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #ImposterSyndrome #DearSociety #nonbinary #EatingDisorders #EatingIssues #eating #EatingHealthyIsNotEasy #MentalHealth #LGBTQIA #BeingHealthyIsNotEasy #sad #BodyShaming #BodyImage

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    Great /vneg | TW Family, one all-cap text

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    My nephews are home again today, and because my autism hates it for some reason (because of external stimuli and being overstimulated), I’m leaving. Again.

    Pros:
    - Finding a quiet space

    Cons:
    - Potentially being misgendered as someone who’s not non-binary (especially being misgendered as a girl)
    - One of my triggers are the words c/v/d-19 (o, i), p/nd/mic (a, e), and q//r/ntine (ua, i) ⚠️(please, please, no one say these words in the comments 🙏🏽) ⚠️, and UNFORTUNATELY it’s pretty common in advertisements (which are almost freaking everywhere - thanks America /sarc) and I can’t even look at advertisements or even the outside world anymore since 2020. Once I accidentally look at a post or whatever (because I do that often) and one of those words appear, there goes my mood. It’s happened twice the last time I went out.

    But I feel like I have nowhere else to go but outside in order to not feel overstimulated. This is ridiculous.

    #fml #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #Family #why #whatdoido

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    A poem on feeling ignored by this planet | TW for ignorance and misrepresentation on different topics, swearing, the word k*ll (i)

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    It hurts,
    It fucking hurts.
    It kills,
    It always did.
    Sad excuses left and right,
    Ignorance is left to bite…
    Me.
    And Us.

    “Systems and plurals are crazy,”
    According to this planet.
    “There’s only men and women,”
    According to this planet.
    “There’s only heterosexuality,”
    According to this planet.
    “Sex define your gender identity,”
    According to this planet.
    “There’s only monogamy and monoamory,”
    According to this planet.
    “White folk deserve more than those of color,”
    According to this planet.
    “There’s only romance and friendship,”
    According to this planet.

    “Everyone’s autism is a disorder or disability,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Neurodivergent folks are too loud,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Fat folks are a joke,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Sex and romance and love is natural among all beings,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Adults can’t cry,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Mental health is selfish,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Trigger warnings are a joke,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “You should stop being poor and pay more,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Everyone should identify as a human being and alterbeings, otherkin, and fictionkin folks are snowflakes and ‘cringe-worthy’,”
    According to this damn planet.
    “Anything that is not seen as ‘normal’ or not common should be stigmatized and criticized until it makes other folk want to closet themselves for eternity and be forced into this void of hell called “being like everyone else’,”
    According to this damn forsaken planet.

    Past mother’s self,
    Mentally abusive.
    Keeps me up,
    As thoughts are still intrusive.
    New mother’s self,
    No longer abusive,
    Past mother keeps me up,
    As they are still intrusive.

    Fuck ignorance.
    What’s it ever done to us?
    Take the Mars and Venus symbol,
    Combine them together,
    And destroy it altogether.
    Neither are truly me.
    Take the “human” label and wash it away,
    And don’t tell me I’m human,
    Else I will cry,
    I’ve cried too much.
    Alterbeings exist anyway.
    An alien hybrid trapped in this damn realm called Earth,
    I love space,
    I miss my home,
    It was much more quieter than here,
    Much more sensical than here,
    Much more reasonable than here,
    Much… less ignorant.

    Than here.

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    I am a non-binary transmasc overweight individual who is part of a system/plural. My pronouns are he/they/it, and some others. I do not identify as a human, I am alterhuman/alterbeing, although I still identify as someone of color. I’m black/mixed. I have 6 non-romantic partners who I all love equally with my entire heart and are also part of the same system I’m a part of, they are as real as ever. Also, I despise my autism being called a disorder or disability.

    And I’m so sick of feeling ignored, and of what Earth had to offer for the past 20 years of my life on its ground. Thank you.

    #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #nonbinary #LGBTQIA #ignorance #Poem #Vent #TW #Anxiety #SocialAnxiety #Alterhuman #otherkin #Racism #Capitalism #Trauma #Polyamory #system #plural #EndTheStigma #GenderIdentity #GenderDysphoria #MentalHealth #Awareness #earth #Homesick #StopSilencingUs

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    I’m so sick of thinking of all the negative bullcrap pretty much every day | TW swearing #venting

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    There’s just so many things wrong with this damn planet. My mind decides to go through all the bullshit and how I think about it/respond to it nearly every morning and nearly every afternoon, and it’s driving me crazy.

    Most folk drive me crazy. I believe that most folk are terrible, ignorant, gatekeepers, hyprocrites when they say that they support others, hypocrites when they say that others can be themselves, and find anything they don’t see in their eye “normal” a stigma, weird, a disorder, or “cringe” (I despise that word especially), and no one can convince me otherwise because I can’t trust most folk because of what I’ve witnessed… I’m sorry.

    It’s causing me a headache now which I didn’t fucking ask for. Oh well.

    #Anxiety #MyAutismIsNotADisorder #SocialAnxiety #anger #Society #Ugh

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