Screaming

I feel like I'm on a train whipping past my life. I've been depressed before and have gotten better. I never know how bad it's gotten until it gets better. I don't have a diagnosis. I don't know what's wrong with me. I want a formal label to know I'm not simply crazy but I don't want to be limited by a diagnosis. I literally don't know how to feel or what to do every day.
A very large part of me wants to ignore everything and stick myself in limbo. But I feel I've seen too much personal growth to repeat my mistakes this year. I just don't know what to do. #Undiagnosed #Screaming inside

I think it's time that I go with the inner shift in my mindset and do something different. Unfortunately, all I want to do now is to kill off my heart, destroy my feelings, and to not allow myself to feel again. I feel like doing everyone a favour and leave without a trace. I no longer want to feel love. I don't know how I could ever help anyone in this world. I don't know why they would need me in the first place. I feel so worthless... I try to endure it all, but I implode every time. My mind seems to be winning every battle thus far. I don't stand a chance against those who seem to be winning the game of life. I seem to fall harder and faster as everyone moves upward. I don't know what I'm doing anymore, I'm feeling everything so much... just let me die. #MentalHealth #Depression #cryforhelp #imnotok #NotOK #idontwantodothisanymore #Crying #Screaming #Screaminginside #letmedie

So can i be honest here #beinghonest
I’m pissed #fuckingmad
All the fluffy words of encouragemet make me angry #fluffywordsareusless
It won’t be better tomorrow. But i need help! #help
So can i be honest #honest or will the truth be to much?
#iwillnevergetbetter