selfharmthoughts

Can’t break through the word disconnect and brain fog, so I’ll just say: hi. Being human is hard.

I have been increasingly struggling with my selfharm urges lately. I have been using my coping skills and talking to staff but it just is not helping. I have been doing really well with not hurting myself but I feel like I am about slip up. #selfharn

I live in a group home and everything is triggering me. I dont know how to deal my symptoms are starting to get really bad even when im with staff. Anyone have any suggestions or things that work for them. #selfharmthoughts

Hi. Is there something that encompasses being disgusted by one's finger and toenails to the point of self-harm? Thanks for your help!

#Selfharm #selfharmthoughts #selfharmurges #BodyDysmorphicDisorder #PremenstrualDysmorphicDisorder

Last night was really hard. I had a really bad dissociation while with my partner. I suddenly couldn't feel my entire body. I couldn't speak. I couldn't tell them what was wrong. I couldn't do anything but cry. At one point I was kicking my legs hard. It took me a good 30 minutes at least to get out of it. After my body just feel sack of potatoes and I was so physically drained. I had run ice packs over my skin to bring myself back.

Today I have been really numb and had to push 7 hours of draining work. I am glad the weekend is here but I am already anxious about it happening again. When I get numb like this my self harm urges build strong. It's been a while since I acted but there have been more close calls lately. I don't know what caused it and I hate that. I know how to ground myself but not knowing the cause is really scary.

#PTSD #Dissociating #PanicAttacks #selfharmthoughts

I'm tired... I'm tired to pretend that I'm okay. I'm tired to keep things inside. Im tired of being in her abusive presence. I'm tired of thinking about selfharming each night. I'm tired of being pissed off at people. In tired if taking shit out on my girlfriend when all she does is being there for me. I'm tired of being here. I'm tired of being me. I'm tired of being scared that I'm only feeling like this for attention. I'm tired of living. I want to go away, whether it's to hospital or to a coffin. I want to get out of here because I'm tired of everything... #SuicidalThoughts #tiredoffighting #Selfharm #selfharmthoughts

I feel like anytime i have anything good happening in my life that I have to ruin it. Whether it be my relationship or my clean streak for SH. I do things that i know aren't beneficial including stealing and self harming and so many other things. it seems out of my control and i dont know what to do. Im currently in an iop but I dont know if its enough rn with my SI and SIB recently. Any advice?

I'm so confused when it comes to how I'm doing mentally and emotionally and I am curious if anyone else feels the same way an what they do about it. I will go for several days like everything is completely fine. When someone even brings up or asks how I am doing mentally, it feels like a ridiculous question and like I was never even struggling to begin with. Then, all of a sudden it hits me and I feel extremely depressed, start getting panic attacks again, and anxious all the time. I start pushing people away again and I can't find the energy to do basic things. Once again, after just a little while, it's over and I'm okay again. When I'm supposed to talk about how I'm doing it gets really difficult because it seems to switch on me so much. I'm so confused and I don't know what this means or what to do about it. Any input?
#selfharmthoughts #help #Depression #Anxiety #ConfusedAndHurt #numb

I am 16 years old and in the past I have struggled a lot with depression, anxiety, self harm, and suicidal thoughts/attempts. For a while I seemed to get better but now its like its all coming back. Right now the biggest problem for me is learning how to cope with panic attacks and just feeling so out of control. In the past, I have always turned to self harm, but I have gone almost a week without cutting and I want to do everything I can to keep that streak going. Does anybody have some suggestions on other things I can do to cope and to avoid going too far down that road again? I'm desperate