I’m almost 35. I’ve spent all of my adulthood until a few years ago sort of in a fog.
After losing my virginity to date rape at 15 and the absolute horrible way it was handled by my family and friends.. I felt even more horrible and spiraled. Lots of bad choices on top of bad choices. Dropped out of high school. Abusive relationships. Promiscuity.. etc.
I was trafficked, got pregnant and escaped. Had my baby(who is now almost 14!!), got married, moved overseas(he’s MIL) had more kids and just sort of floated/survived in a cloud of PTSD/CPTSD
Life got super rough again a few years ago. But this time it started my journey to healing. That I’m still working on but oh the progress has been amazing.
Just the fact that I can even imagine going to school. Having a career. Doing something that I am passionate about.. is amazing in and of itself. Seriously. Tear jerkingly amazing, it feels good.
Social Worker. My heart is and ALWAYS has been for people. Even more so now as I work through my stuff. Kids. The ones that are just having a rough life. IDK how yet.. lots of time to figure that out.
If I can help this way, then this is it. At least 7 years before being able to get licensed. And that’s if I go to school full time.
It’s scary, and intimidating and daunting.. but the thought of the end result just lights me up inside.
We shall see. I want to make a difference. All of us are worth love and care and direction.
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