Standupforyourself

So I didn’t her anything from my Np. I called the 3 rd time saying how I’m upset she hasn’t called me back and how I’m about to go off . The lady interrupted the Np visit with other patient. I finally got to talk to her and told her I want off that I already refilled my Zoloft prescription and buspar. She goes you have only been on it for a week I said well I’m having major numbness throughout my body including the throat. Thankfully I don’t drive I would have been dead. If I get hot flashes with Zoloft so be it

I am a really good person and have tons of friends but siblings and adult step-children won’t talk to me because I stated my feelings and this really devastates me. I think it’s me. Lots more to the s story.

So during my therapy session last night, my therapist brought up a good point that’s sticking with me.
I’ve been in a #ChronicPain flare up for the past month. But over the past month, I’ve stopped feeling like a victim and started standing up for myself. She said that maybe the reason I’m having pain is because I’m finally letting go of all the negative shit and the tension I’ve had for the past year is getting out of my body. I had to stop and think about this. I’ve been looking back on my past and it’s connection to my pain. It seems like every time I make a breakthrough I have a pain flare up.
My therapist also added that the pain could be temporary, so that gives me hope. #Depression #Pain #Trauma #notavictim #Standupforyourself