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    Me

    Wanna soar so high
    But my wings are clipped

    Wanna scream so loud
    But my lips are sealed

    Wanna be happy and alive
    But my soul is dead

    #Depression #useless #worthless

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    Kaymo

    Taking a little break and I feel GUILTY

    I just came back from vacation with my 10 year old. I think anyone would agree that vacationing alone with children is not super relaxing.

    It was a nice trip. Although we did have a boating accident and I’m not the best swimmer, so it was a bit traumatic. Saturday we stayed in, Sunday I was able to take him to the pool, monday I literally did nothing. Tuesday I mustered up strength to go to his baseball game. But I am so burnt out. I feel exhausted. I haven't worked much (I work for myself) and haven't opened my store.

    I spoke to my therapist and she said that it sounds like I need a break. So yesterday I called my sons dad and asked if he could keep him last night (I didn't even go to my son's game and I never miss them) and tonight. He agreed after giving me HELLLL.

    So here I am. Feeling guilty I am not working. That I am a terrible mom. Worthless. And I can't even take a break because my mind is filled with all these terrible thoughts. I feel like I need a vacation. Not sure from what...

    Anyone else ever feel like this??

    #Anxiety #Depression #Guilt #MomGuilt #workguilt #worthless #Lazy

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    I am a mess

    <p>I am a mess</p>
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    I feel as if I don't belong and nobody cares if I am here.....

    I am almost 60 years old, just a few more months now. I never thought I would ever be this old. I don't think I emotionally planned for it anyway.
    For the first time in my life I fell in love with a woman, that was 5 years ago.
    she left me 3 years ago. She didn't speak to me for almost 2 years. last March she accepted a friend request from me on Facebook messenger. We talked a bit there. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder nearly 10 years ago now. She was aware of it, it was something that we talked about in the beginning of our relationship. I wanted her to know so she could maybe try to understand some of my poor responses to things.
    Anyway, we were talking again until August of 2021 when she just quit talking to me again. I have been devastated ever since. I wasn't trying to start a relationship with her again I only wanted to try and reconcile our friendship, she is a very important person in my life. I now feel completely worthless and no good to anybody. Along the way I have tried to reconcile relationships with my children and all of those relationships have fallen apart also.....
    I feel all alone, unlovable and worthless..... will this ever go away....
    #Loneliness #worthless #Borderline personality disorder #scared

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    I'm spiraling out of control. I wear my heart on my sleeve normally, but now I'm hiding it... not cause I don't want it to be seen... its because I don't wanna hurt the ones that I love by having to deal with my pain. I've never accomplished anything besides my kids, and my 14 year old daughter can't even stand to have me around. I try and I'm just an inconvenience to everyone. I'm not saying they don't love me... but I sure as hell don't make them better. I know it would hurt them if I was gone, but I also know they would be free of this burden I've become. My daughter would be able to live with her dad which is what she wants to do without worrying about hurting me. She'd never have to deal with my tears or my pain anymore. But I can't do anything right now cause she'd blame herself. I am tired of hurting people I love by just existing. They need to be happy.

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    A self reminder

    <p>A self reminder</p>
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    Feeling #worthless

    How do you put how you feel into words when you don't have the words to describe what you are feeling?

    I feel lower than normal. And my normal is that I am worthless and the world would be a better place if I had never been born. Even with decades of reframing negative thinking, I have not been able to crawl out of the pit of negative thoughts for the past few days.

    I wish:

    * I had someone I could trust to confide in.

    there was somewhere I could go to find support. I could afford therapy and doctors Being poor, depressed, anxious, friendless and lonely and alone is really stretching my coping skills.

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    Worthless. Unwanted. There's no point to me being here. These are the things my mind keep telling me.

    Lately my mind is a dangerous place to be. I just feel utterly worthless and unwanted and question why I'm even here when all I'm doing is going through the motions and just existing rather than actually living. I am exhausted. Insomnia is kicking my butt lately and between that, my anxiety and depression, it's all just making my mental health plummet. And I know part of the reason is some stupid health issues I'm having that I go to the doctor for in a couple weeks, but I can't help but think that once those issues are resolved, that it's not going to make things better and I'm just going to go back to struggling like I normally do, just without the health issues adding to that. I'm just exhausted from trying to pretend that I'm happy, that I'm okay. I am tired of putting on this show for everyone around me. But in the back of my mind, I know that if I were to show how I'm feeling and speak about how I'm feeling and the thoughts I'm thinking, people would leave just like they always do when things get too real. I just don't even know what to do anymore.
    #Anxiety #Depression #Insomnia #worthless #unwanted

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