Parents can be so fucking toxic. I mean there's a double toxicity when they bitch about you in the room where you can fucking clearly hear them and the audacity of them that the child is not paying attention to them because they are 24/7 in their cellphone.
#Parents #todayfeeling
Today I felt different than yesterday and the days before. I woke up feeling more confident within myself. I looked in the mirror and told myself how much I’ve changed. I’ve grown. I’ve survived. This is my warrior shield, I am my worrier shield if you will. I have to create creative ways for my mind and imagination part to feel connected somehow. The comparisons help me. Anyways, lately I have been feeling a little less confident. Maybe it’s because my job requires me to get dirty and sweaty and not express myself in anyway. I wear loose scrubs and a somewhat baggy shirt on me. I don’t ever feel confident when I’m at work and that is where I am 40+ hours of the week. Today, I did my makeup a little different, I put some nice clothes and jewelry and I felt so different...I felt happier to be myself and wear what made me happy and comfortable that day. I sometimes get so lost in my job that requires so much mental and physical strength to get through, and I come out crying and frustrated with myself because I’m neglecting my own self..I know I’m so many ways I could be confident but I’ve never seen it in me. Today, I went into my job to get some papers and my co-workers were like “wow, you look so good when you aren’t at work!” Or “wow, you look different when your not in your work clothes!” It made me remind myself that these people don’t even see that side of me ever. As little as I do myself.... #Confidenceneeded #Tryingtocope #Tryingtobehere
Today, I'm pretty okay. Not perfect.
I remember reading a bunch of rose and thorns, and I have decided to do one today.
My thorn is that I made things worse at home by talking to CFS Friday, than going to my friends place for the weekend.
Rose: I had an amazing weekend, and I may be moving in with this friend until at least the end of April.
Life may not be all sugar and spice and everything nice, but remember that for every bad thing, there is always a good thing to counteract it, and no matter how big or small, the good thing will always outweigh the bad.
I feel both happy and sad. I had to break up with my boyfriend. At the beginning of the weekend, I was told that I'd have to avoid him at all costs. I had to avoid him at school, and I almost dropped out of cadets because of it.
But this morning, I was told we can still see each other, but just as friends. We can't date, but at least I don't have to avoid him.
I'm happy, and sad, and confused, but most of all, I am depressed and happy. I know, contradicting, and confusing, but it is what it is...
I feel amazing today! I have reason to feel great too, which make it even better!
How are you feeling? I won't judge. Good or bad, feel free to share!
Today, I am feeling really bad. I'll say why if you care, but if not, than whatever.
Hey! It feels good to be back? I'm feeling pretty great today. What about you? How are you feeling today?
Hey all. Didn't think I'd get to post until Monday, but I can. Just one, though.
I'm really struggling. My depression and anxiety are high, and I'm having suicidal thoughts a lot. I hope you're doing better.
Sad, and anxious. Plus, i just told my stepmom about my anxiety about getting addicted to random stuff(green beans, arbys fries, etc. etc) so....yeah.
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