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    should I get a Laparoscopy? #Endometriosis #Infertility #Ttc

    To sum it all up... I had a miscarriage Oct 2018, I have been trying to conceive ever since. I have painful periods and other symptoms of endo. My gyno suggested a Laparoscopy. Would this help me conceive? I mean, I know there is no way to know unless I do it- but maybe I just want to hear some experiences good or bad in regards to the surgery helping or not helping with getting pregnant #Endometriosis #Infertility #Anxiety

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    Will I Only See My Children In My Dreams

    I know I have to get to her.

    I feel the pull in my gut to leave where I am.

    I know she is safe and I know she is not far. So I stand up and I go looking for her.

    I realise, I’m in my house and I start to walk down the stairs.

    I pause halfway down the stairs and I look to my right.

    There she is.

    I can see her wiggling

    I can hear her babbling

    She’s dressed in a cerise pink, footless onesie that stops at her ankle exposing her little chubby feet.

    I feel myself melt

    I feel my breathing quicken

    I get to the bottom of the stairs and I enter my brothers bedroom.

    The room is clean, the walls are white, and the light seems brighter than usual.

    She’s lying on the bed, on top of a cream soft blanket and she continues to babble and wiggle.

    My brother is playing his Xbox and I guess is supposed to be watching her for me.

    He pauses his game, exits the room and leaves us alone.

    I move closer towards her and I see her chubby fingers playing with her chubby feet and my heart beats a little faster.

    Her skin, is the same shade of golden honey and softer than velvet

    Her baby hair is silky and jet black, and pushed to one side

    I look down and lock eyes with my dark brown, doe-eyed girl

    She looks about 8months old

    And I can’t believe it

    I’m looking at my little chunky monkey

    She’s looks at me and smiles.

    She knows I’m her mummy.

    She’s happy to see me but could never know how happy I am to see her.

    My heart is beating much faster and I feel myself smiling.

    I’m giddy with love.

    I’m giddy with excitement

    I pick her up and feel the weight of her in my arms.

    I can’t take my eyes off her

    She is just fantastically beautiful

    She smiles her gummy smile and I feel myself melt further and fall deeper in love than I’ve ever felt.

    I smell her neck and my head spins. I’m intoxicated by her

    I kiss her feet

    She giggles and I kiss her feet again

    Nothing like kissing a babies foot or hearing a baby laugh.

    I’m soaking her up.

    She looks like me but I can also see my mum.

    I just can’t take my eyes off her

    I try my hardest to take in every detail of her

    I’m in awe and I don’t want to let her go

    I feel joy burst in my heart and I feel peace cover me.

    Then I blink and suddenly I’m awake

    And just like that she’s gone

    She’s drifted away and formed into the words you’re now reading

    Then I think…

    Will I only see my children in my dreams?

    #Stillbirth #Miscarriage #Infertility #Ttc #baby #Love #Grief #MentalHealth #mom #Poem #PostnatalDepression #PregnancyLoss #WritingThroughIt #dreams


    Why am I this way?

    So, I'm trying to conceive. in doing so, I thought it'd be nice to join a community of people trying ti conceive. I'm also using a sperm donor. I posted this in the group and all I got, really, was negativity. was told my post was spam and fishy. I asked them to please not be negative on my post and they started attacking me. i just left the group. now, I'm crying. my feelings are hurt, but more than that, am i mother material? the fact that their words hurt me so much bothers me. maybe i shouldn't have children. #Ttc #Depression #Anxiety #Ihatemybrain


    How do you cope with migraine when trying to conceive? #Migraine #ChronicPain #Pregnancy #Ttc

    I’ve been trying to conceive for 6 months and worked hard to come off antidepressants and preventative migraine medication but was unprepared for how awful untreated migraines would be each month whilst waiting to see if I’m pregnant. The pain feels frustrating and futile when my period comes and I could have taken pain meds. Does anyone have any tips or similar experiences?

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