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I don’t get it. Why do I still have these freaking dreams when my mom is mentally abusive and I end up getting into an argument with her?

She’s not even like this anymore. She’s not even overly jealous of me and my dad anymore, she’s improved so much and I love her now. Is it because I still live with her, or because she’s been toxic to me most of my life, or because of my youngest nephew (a kid) being on summer break and can get me overstimulated (especially when conflicts due to him being loud and active can come up)? Am I cursed to having these dreams for the rest of my life???

It’s so annoying… it makes me sad because she’s not even like this anymore… she’s fine…

#MyAutismIsNotADisorder #SocialAnxiety #Anxiety #mentalabuse #Family #dreams #StressDream #Abuse #Trauma

I have had recently stopped dreaming. And I think the relapse of my POTS has made me forget all of the things I was able to do with it feeling not so good but doing things I never thought I could do.
I want to dream again
I want to believe I can do things that are fun and creative again
I want to inspire people and let them know they have a friend
I want to be a mama to the lgbtq+ community of children that are abaondoned by their parents
I want to love people like Jesus loves me.
I want to give tons of hugs I miss that.
What is yours??

#PTSD #POTS #dreams
#hopes #Love

Has anyone ever dreamt of the same thing over and over, night after night? Have you ever tried looking up what it means to have that same dream? You should…. I found mine to be rather interesting…
For the past several months I have been dreaming of a house I feel somewhat uncomfortable in. A home I have never seen before but I walk around it like it’s my own. Some nights, when I dream of this place, the house is huge & beautiful. But there are some nights I walk around and see huge holes in the walls, broken pipes, boxes beyond boxes piled up… and I never even have the urge to fix any of it… I just stare at it all and then try to find my way around the hospital, always feel lost… how weird, right? Every morning when I would wake up, it never fails, I’m upset, sad, angry just over emotional and it sometime makes for a long long day. I decided to look up different meanings of different dreams you have… let me tell you, when I read what my dream may possibly mean, I was blown away. The big house that’s kind of falling apart is a reflection of myself. Which means, even though I know I am struggling with my inner demons in the real world, these dreams are telling me, “Get your House in Order.”
I am slowly but surely trying to do just that.
#innerdemons #dreams #Anxiety #Depression

I get very angry because I am frustrated at my own decisions. I beat myself up about the friends I kept and how they took advantage of me. I don't know why I am so angry when my mum is just trying to help. I think it's more to do with the fact I don't want these problems and I should never have to deal with them in the first place.

I kept bad company in my late teens and was getting into a lot of trouble. I need to remind myself that none of the decisions I made are my mothers fault - I need to start taking ownership of my own life. I was involved with the wrong crowd and I have to accept that nothing positive comes from that type of existence. I know it is difficult to come to terms with and I am deeply sorry for my decisions.

I want to stop getting angry at my mother and stop blaming her for all the negative events that were inevitably going to occur. I was not cut out for that life and my parents were trying to warn me before anything happened to me. Luckily I managed to survive without any major life changing events but I am left with the mental trauma that I am not equipped to deal with.

I need to stop getting angry and start living life on my terms. My time on this planet is not perfect and the decisions I make merely reflect an imperfect life.

#PTSD #anger #Depression #Sadness #Drugs #Addiction #Guilt #Friends #association #nobody #empty #assualt #Trauma #Pain #hurt #betrayal #lies #Truth #hate #End #time #Life #Happiness #dreams #Love #Positivity #Support #Love #Rage #control

I keep waking up from really strange/scary dreams the past few days and I’m not sure why. I haven’t had any recent med changes or anything. These dreams seem very real to the point where I wake up and have to remind myself that I am safe and not actually having those things happen in real life. Anyway just rambling to get my thoughts out.

Hi! Cecilia, I'm new to the group 😊

I struggle with nightmares and several awakes during the night, also usually having a hard time falling asleep (and falling asleep again).
It's been some years I've been struggling with severe thirst (some sort of dehydration, but the causes are still unknown) which worsen the nightmares and makes it more difficult for me to sleep for a decent amount of time and/or sleep it well.

There's also my last post on my profile explaing parts of this: didn't want to copy it and paste it ~

To anyone willing to talk and share, I'm here!

#SleepDeprivation #Insomnia #poorsleep #badconcentration #Nightmares #dreams #Sleep #thirst #Fear #Paranoia #Awake

When I was a child, I've always had troubles falling asleep. Because my mind was fully awake, when very young, but then mostly because of stuff I was deadly afraid of. When I managed to, I had very vivid nightmares and used to wake up a lot during the night, having troubles falling asleep again.

Each time I got in bed, I started trying not to fall asleep, because bad things would have occured if I wasn't there awake and aware, in order to acknowledge anything that was happening in the house.

I now fall asleep more easily, but I remember having only one nice dream; each night I have at least one nightmare, usually up to many more.

The nightmares are generally about threats or issues I should escape safe from or disturbing stuff in general. They're very long and articulated, implying plots and including a lot of details.

When I wake up, if my attention isn't suddenly drawn to something else, the dreams usually follow me during the day and it takes a big part of it for them and their effects to vanish away.

If there's anyone interested in sharing some thoughts about this, I'd be happy to.

It can be very stressful and I haven't slept well in ages. I'd like to find a key to understand this or simply tips to try and see if they could help me.

Anyone who can relate?

#Nightmares #SleepDeprivation #Sleep #sleeppattern #sleepissue #Insomnia #Paranoia #threats #dreams #fallingasleep #thirst #Stress #overthinking #worstcasescenarios #Fear #sleepdisorder #OCD #Anxiety #Obsession #Death #obsessivethoughts

I'm going to be a preschool teacher! After working 10 years in the corporate world I'm switching my career back to teaching.

Working in the corporate world can feel exhausting, overwhelming and honestly like I'm a human robot.

I'm excited to do work that's meaningful and rewarding. These little lives are trusting me to guide and help them learn in a safe fun environment. As my mom would say, "I'm up for the job!"

A big source of my unhappiness stemmed from not being fulfilled in my career. I believe that's why a lot of people are unhappy. Its what we spend most of our lives doing so we should do what we love.

I love teaching, I love leading by example and I love guiding children who will one day rule the world. They are our future and the responsibility is mine.

If you can, do it for your mental health, do it for your passion, do it for your life. Live the life you've always dreamed of.

Switching careers doesn't take away my depression and anxiety but I understand I need to do the things that feeds my soul and exites me in a good way. We're only here for a limited amount of time. I might as well live it how I want to even if that means coloring outside of the lines a little.

I want to know your experience about a sudden switch in careers. What are you passionate about? Are you doing what you love?

#Teaching #passion #Children #preschool #Depression #Career #Anxiety #Love #dreams #god #MentalHealth #Trust