Anxietyissues

Hi, you guys, I'm new here, too! I could've used a community like this ages ago! But so #grateful to have found a place to share thoughts and fears with a group who gets it. It's so hard out there getting smashed by waves of judgement and ridicule, but the flip is that I have a plethora of info n insight, and I'll be giving more than receiving! Please reach out with love or questions so I can get to know you all! Ok, enough rainbows and unicorns! Now for my vent sesh: My Pet Peeve of the Day (PP-OTD) is freaking doctors who won't medicate me for anxiety, rather they'd prefer to shove antidepressants and antipsychotics down my throat, medicating me for conditions I don't even have, even though I have stacks of doctor's notes from my past, indicating which meds work for me!!! I've idiot proofed it for them, and they're just fighting me, denying me, making a mockery out of my grief, MY SUFFERING! How dare they... it really hurts me, how I'm being treated. How does any of this make sense??? #doctoregossuck #BPD #Anxietyissues #Selfworth #Selflove #supportoneanother

BPD things
1. Not letting yourself get close to people because you’re afraid you’ll get hurt then being hurt anyway because no one wants to be close to you in the first place.
2. Hating someone so much you wish they leave forever, but loving them so much you’d die if they did.
3. Trying your best not to cry or go into a rage after someone criticizes you in the smallest way.
4. Being triggered by the slightest things.
5. Always feeling alone you know deep down that no one cares or understands, and that those who are in your life won’t stay for very long.
6. Being convinced you can never make the one you love happy and asking them for reassurance until your constant mistrust drives them over the edge and makes them unhappy.
7. Make something cool. Inner voice says “That’s stupid, destroy it!”
8. Spending money you need to be saving on things you did not need when you feel down about yourself.
9. Detaching yourself from those closest to you just in case they decide to hurt you.
10. “I’m so scared of being nice and still being rejected.”
11. No matter how hard you try, everyone still leaves.
12. Crying for days because everything is suddenly Sad.
13. Not being emotionally available for your love ones because it’s too triggering.
14. Hating on your boyfriend/girlfriend every time he/she is not there for you.
15. Telling someone “I hate you, don’t talk to me!” And an hour later you love them.

Does anyone relate to all or any of these? Leave me a comment please. #bpdthings #bpdsymptoms #Depression #Anxietyissues #BPD #MentalIllness #CheckInWithMe