Bipolar 1 Disorder

I just finished a euphoric manic episode with hyper sexuality. Now I think it’s mixed because I still don’t feel stable or right. I’m impulsive, not myself, racing thoughts, but really depressed, irritable as hell, and what’s interesting is I’m really hungry. Anyways the hyper sexuality is dying down and I can’t tell if I’m more normal as far as that goes or numb. It’s like I can’t feel as intensely as I did when I was euphoric manic. I keep trying but I can’t. It’s like I’m trying to chase a high for that like dopamine rush but I don’t want the negative consequences such as the impulsivity.

I’m having a hard time letting go of the intense happiness you feel when you are euphorically manic. I’m really irritated at everything one of my coworker does, I find him so repulsive, etc. when I was euphoric manic I found him pretty attractive but not at the same time and I thought he was flirting with me and I enjoyed the atttention. I’m not so sure he was which is embarrassing but that’s just how it goes. I think everyone’s attracted to me when I’m euphoric manic. I dont know anyone relate or understand what’s going on???

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I just finished a euphoric manic episode with hyper sexuality. Now I think it’s mixed because I still don’t feel stable or right. I’m impulsive, not myself, racing thoughts, but really depressed, irritable as hell, and what’s interesting is I’m really hungry. Anyways the hyper sexuality is dying down and I can’t tell if I’m more normal as far as that goes or numb. It’s like I can’t feel as intensely as I did when I was euphoric manic. I keep trying but I can’t. It’s like I’m trying to chase a high for that like dopamine rush but I don’t want the negative consequences such as the impulsivity.

I’m having a hard time letting go of the intense happiness you feel when you are euphorically manic. I’m really irritated at everything one of my coworker does, I find him so repulsive, etc. when I was euphoric manic I found him pretty attractive but not at the same time and I thought he was flirting with me and I enjoyed the atttention. I’m not so sure he was which is embarrassing but that’s just how it goes. I think everyone’s attracted to me when I’m euphoric manic. I dont know anyone relate or understand what’s going on???

#Bipolar2 #Bipolar1 #BipolarDepression #Manic #BipolarDisorder

I have been in a nonstop cycling of episodes since August (trigger being cutting narcissistic mother out of my life). In a mixed episode, leaning more depressed rn. My perception of reality changes so drastically when I am manic, depressed, and in a mixed state. It’s so hard to describe to others who aren’t bipolar. My husband doesn’t seem to listen or believe me. He takes it all so personally. I say things I don’t mean and when I try to backpeddle and explain it’s just my fucking bipolar I think he thinks I’m fucking lying.

I’m so exhausted. I can’t take care of him, myself, and my daughter. I don’t have anything to give I’m just trying to keep afloat I wish he could understand better. I’m under so much stress in my personal and occupational lives. I can’t get good sleep rn because of my baby. So i dont know what tf to do. I don’t feel like I have anyone to look out for me or take care of me. Very minimal support. I just need him to understand. I feel so out of control and scared.

#Bipolar2 #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #MoodDisorders #Mania #Depression

Hello. I am new here and hopeful to get some support. I was just diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and ADHD yesterday. I am terrified - knowing this a life long disorder, the possible instability of the highs and lows, the stigma attached to it, and the effects on my poor family. I just need to know I’m not alone in this. #Bipolar1 #ADHDInGirls #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder

Hello. I am new here and hopeful to get some support. I was just diagnosed with Bipolar I disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and ADHD yesterday. I am terrified - knowing this a life long disorder, the possible instability of the highs and lows, the stigma attached to it, and the effects on my poor family. I just need to know I’m not alone in this. #Bipolar1 #ADHDInGirls #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder

Hi, my name is ShanaBanana. I've been diagnosed with Bipolar 1 and Borderline Personality Disorders. Just trying to find a community of like minded individuals.

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I truly believe that I have finally hit my "bottom" today with my addiction to crystal meth. I'm really tired of abusing the body that God has blessed me with, It gets old going through the same old cycle over and over again. I'm ready to begin my recovery journey but I have extreme anxiety about attending 12-step meetings and I fear my own chances of a relapse again if I don't start following a program. I have come to this conclusion: If I don't start being proactive about my recovery and health and stay on the path I am currently on, I will end up dead from a heart attack, stroke, etc. I appreciate and value my life more than that so I need to act and live life like I value it.

I truly believe that I have finally hit my "bottom" today with my addiction to crystal meth. I'm really tired of abusing the body that God has blessed me with, It gets old going through the same old cycle over and over again. I'm ready to begin my recovery journey but I have extreme anxiety about attending 12-step meetings and I fear my own chances of a relapse again if I don't start following a program. I have come to this conclusion: If I don't start being proactive about my recovery and health and stay on the path I am currently on, I will end up dead from a heart attack, stroke, etc. I appreciate and value my life more than that so I need to act and live life like I value it.