Bipolar 2 Disorder

hi, my name is nyx. i've been diagnosed with anxiety, bipolar 2, bpd, chronic migraines, autism, ptsd, adhd, an ed, ocd, pots, heds, and a bunch of other stuff (oops)

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Don't let me give up

Don't let me give up

I really hope I lose all this unwanted weight and keep it off permanently. In the past I was on Adipex (a weight loss pill), I lost all the weight on the pill but when I stopped taking it I ended up gaining back more weight and it damaged my skin with deep acne scarring. I want to lose all this weight naturally and safely and to never gain back any unwanted weight. It would mean the absolute world to me if I lost all this unwanted weight and kept it off permanently

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I really hope I lose all this unwanted weight and keep it off permanently. In the past I was on Adipex (a weight loss pill), I lost all the weight on the pill but when I stopped taking it I ended up gaining back more weight and it damaged my skin with deep acne scarring. I want to lose all this weight naturally and safely and to never gain back any unwanted weight. It would mean the absolute world to me if I lost all this unwanted weight and kept it off permanently

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My doctor says I need to lose it. It would mean the absolute world to me if I lost all this unwanted weight and kept it off permanently. Please don’t comment saying it’s okay to be overweight or stupid stuff like that because nobody wants to be fat unless if you are stupid. I just hope I lose all this weight and keep it off permanently

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My doctor says I need to lose it. It would mean the absolute world to me if I lost all this unwanted weight and kept it off permanently. Please don’t comment saying it’s okay to be overweight or stupid stuff like that because nobody wants to be fat unless if you are stupid. I just hope I lose all this weight and keep it off permanently

#CheckInWithMe #CheerMeOn #MightyTogether #Psychosis #Depression #MentalHealth #MajorDepressiveDisorder #Trauma #PanicAttacks #PanicDisorder #PanicAttack #PTSD #Bipolar2 #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #SuicidalThoughts #Suicide #Schizophrenia #SchizoaffectiveDisorder #Selfharm #Anxiety #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #SocialAnxiety #Obesity #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PostTraumaticStressDisorder #SchizophreniaSpectrumPsychoticDisorders

So yesterday I dressed up a bit to go to facilitate a peer to peer mental health group. It is a very casual setting and most of the time we are all dressed in jeans and comfy tops, T-shirts and the like. I was feeling good and wanted to look good too. It was a fun change. When I got home I took a picture of myself in my full length bathroom mirror (I didn't have anyone who could take a picture at the time). I liked it. I sent the picture to my daughter and she really liked it. Then I began wondering what the heck I was thinking. As we do, I systematically tore my looks to bits. I've inwardly cringed, thinking about what others must think when they look at me. I'm not one of the beautiful people! Today, I began my day by not wanting to even go outside... I must be hideous! I was embarrassed. But then I realized something: I not only was letting echoes of my Step-Father's voice that told me how ugly I was get to me even after all of these years, but allowing my mental illness to control my own self esteem. I would never talk to a friend the way I was talking to myself! I would point out all of the good qualities in her picture and in life! I would build her up, not tear her down, so what was I doing?! I don't know why we do these terrible things to ourselves. I'm worthy of self love, self appreciation. I restarted my thoughts with realizing I'm not hideous; small children don't laugh at me, dogs don't bark and try to run away when I approach. My looks are fine. My beauty is in my soul... right where it should be. I hope you have a wonderful day and accept yourself as you are.