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Letter to my Inner Child

Dear Gloria,

For 33 years, you held onto pain and walked around with open wounds that nobody knew of. Wounds of a little girl who just wanted her daddy. You looked for him in everybody, and even in the shadows.

You spent so many nights crying and wondering why people continuously hurt you. All you wanted was protection and safety, and I'm sorry that so many people have failed you.

I'm sorry you were so lonely.

You are truly so beautiful inside and out. You are deserving of happiness, and of all good things that are coming your way. Your resilience is one of a kind. One day, you will mother children who will learn so much from you and will appreciate you for being so kind, loving, and strong.

You are free now, my love. Unbind yourself. Spread your wings and let yourself fly.

Love yourself always.

Yours truly.

#TheMighty #CheckInWithMe #Forgiveness #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #Healing #Anxiety #Bpdrecovery #MentalHealth #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PostTraumaticStressDisorder #Selflove

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Check-In

Hi friends, my life has been a whirlwind since I last posted on here. On my last post, I wrote about Healing Father Wounds because it finally occurred to me that a lot of the dysfunctions, miscommunication, and disagreements in my current relationship has everything to do with my father wounds, and my boyfriend's mother wounds. It brought awareness to our relationship and made me want to learn more about myself and why I behave or think the way I do. Alot of the information was taken from Chat GPT and google search, but still very informative and helpful.

I'm officially back into therapy and have had two sessions so far. I unfortunately missed one because I was bedridden due to depression, but when I communicated this to my therapist - she was very understanding. I made sure to let her know that the whole point of seeking therapy is to not focus solely on my relationship but to dig deep and confront the root of all causes as to why or how I am the way I am today. I learned that it all started from my relationship with my father, and it never really occurred to me that I have been angry at him my whole life. I used to think it was my mother that I was angry at. I realize now that I took all of my anger out on her growing up when she didn't deserve any of that. Afterall, she tried her best. Right now, I am in the beginning stages of forgiveness. For the first time in my life, I feel hopeful and ready to start healing that very part of me that has been missing for so long.

As for my relationship, both my boyfriend and I have decided to take some time to reflect and work on ourselves. He is currently on a two-week cruise for work. We talk every single day and have been practicing gratitude. I can't lie though. I miss him terribly. We are going on day 5 now, and the first 4 days have been hell. I've been crying and moping around because I miss him so much. My separation anxiety and abandonment issues get the best of me but luckily, he does the best he can to check-in with me multiple times a day. I'll keep my head up and remain strong.

Thanks for reading.

#TheMighty #CheckInWithMe #Forgiveness #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #Healing #Anxiety #Bpdrecovery #MentalHealth #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PostTraumaticStressDisorder

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Help

Why is it that as someone struggling immensely with PTSD and BPD do I find myself always trying to heal others instead of myself? The partners I choose tend to always overshadow my needs, and I always feel neglected & alone.

I am fighting to survive at this point.

Somebody please tell me I'm not alone.

#TheMighty #CheckInWithMe #Forgiveness #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #Healing #Anxiety #Bpdrecovery #MentalHealth #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PostTraumaticStressDisorder

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Check-In

Hi friends, I hope everyone is doing well. It has been several weeks since I wrote a post here on The Mighty. My last check-in was 3 weeks ago, and it was before I left to Arizona to celebrate my one-year anniversary with my boyfriend.

Since then, I haven't been doing well mentally so please pray for me. I don't want to go into too many details. However, I'll confess that I have crashed out several times. It got so bad that I injured my right arm from punching the kitchen counter. I've been experiencing chronic pains in my chest and constant migraines. I'm recognizing that I am spiraling, and something definitely needs to change.

On the brighter side, I am finally back in therapy. Interestingly enough, I was diagnosed with PTSD & so I've been researching more about that. If you have any advice to destress and decompress, don't hesitate to share.

I'm going to end it here. I'll write soon.

#TheMighty #CheckInWithMe #Forgiveness #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #Healing #Anxiety #Bpdrecovery #MentalHealth #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery #PostTraumaticStressDisorder

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BPD Check-in

It has been a month since I joined The Mighty and nearly a week since I wrote my first post: Fragments of Me: A Personal Story About My Life with Borderline Personality Disorder.

Today I feel the sudden need to check-in. I plan to do this more often so I can mark my progress and record my thoughts. All of this is to ease my mind and to lessen the burden on the people around me. I've been told that I can be overwhelming because of my constant need to overshare and my inability to let things go. It hurts to hear that, but to be fair, I'd rather people be honest than to lie to me, so I'll take it in with a grain of salt.

I'm relieved to have found a community with individuals that are going through something similar or who are willing to learn more about their loved ones suffering with mental health disorders such as mine. However, I'm still struggling to find balance in my everyday life & I've been finding myself extremely insecure and anxious as of lately.

Alot of it has to do with the fact that next week my boyfriend and I are reaching our one year. We have been fighting intensely for the last few months due to my insecurities and distrust for things that happened early on in our relationship. It reached a point where we started questioning if we should continue on because we were making each other miserable. Definitely not an ideal start to our one year especially when we have a trip planned solely dedicated to celebrating that milestone in our relationship.

The question I have is: As a borderline, how do I forgive and let the past be the past?

#TheMighty #CheckInWithMe #Forgiveness #BPD #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #Healing #Anxiety #Bpdrecovery #MentalHealth

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Borderline personality disorder

Hi, I'm Megan, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder a little over a year ago. I'm 29 years old. & I just wanted to share what I have learned about myself and my symptoms. I tend to get triggered alot by what people say and I sometimes go into a rage and then become numb, I dissociate alot more lately just because I'm so tired of feeling depressed or angry all the time so I feel numb when I dissociate with the world around me. I have major emotional mood swings and tend to have suicidal thoughts once in a while, lately I have been having skitzoeffective tendencies and I have researched and that is normal for people with personality disorders. Now I'm trying to deal with that. The best thing I do to help me is I have done a bpd workbook by Daniel fox and I have learning coping skills from that b book, a big one for me is take a break from the situation and question all the facts, Journaling and music really help me as well to calm down during mood swing episodes i get from having BPD.
#Bpdrecovery
#PersonalityDisorders

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Hope It reaches you

I hope this letter finds you well. How are you?

I don't think I'll ever get to know, but I hope

you are doing fine. It saddens me And to be

honest, not a day has gone by that I haven't

though about you. I still watch our photos

from time to time and it still makes me

smile, and at the same time it makes me cry.

I will never forget you. Even if the memories

hurt, I don't ever want to forget you. You'll

always have a special place in my heart

because you were and will be my 'special'

love. We had something special. You walked

into my life one day and you made me realize

that you were everything that I needed and

wanted. I thought you were the one for me,

and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with

you.

You were my lover and my best friend. I

could always count on you. We had

everything planned out. After we get settled

than our marriage, then married life and all.

But somewhere along the way, we lost track

of it. I tried to bring back the flame, but it

ended up burning everything down.

I'm sorry. I'd be lying if I said I don't miss you.

Because even before we ended, I've been

missing you for much longer than that, I

wanted us to be together 24/7. I miss you

leaning on my shoulder, I miss my'

'comfy-spot'. I miss me lifting you in in terrace, ,I

miss me starring at you in public cause i

didn't have a care in the world. It was just

you and me.I

think that you did give your 100% to tolerate me.#

You loved me in a way no one else did. You

became a part of me. I grew in the love that

you gave me, and I'll forever be thankful.

You are the love of my life. Always will be.

But love doesn't conquer all, and the reality

is, not everyone gets to hold on to the love of

their lives. But this doesn't mean that l'm

giving up on the possibility of us being

together again. If we're meant for each other,

we'll find our way back to each other.

I had to let go trying because you were no

longer happy seeing me. I was continuously

suffocating and hurting you. I didn't really

have a choice. The tears had to end, and I

didn't want to get to the point where we start

hating each other. Although you probably

hate me now, I'm still hoping that someday

you'll learn to forgive me. I'm hoping that

you'll understand why we became to be like

this and you want to give it a go again.

Nevertheless, your significance in my life will

never change. I love you enough that I would

still want you in my life even if I'm no longer

your reason to be happy. I thought you would,

too. Thank you for the memories, the good

and the bad, and I'll forever cherish them till

the day I leave this world. I was lucky to have

met you. After all, not everyone gets to meet

their love of the lives, and I know in my heart

and mind, that you were mine. I'm sorry for

the times I have hurt you and made you cry. I

really am.

Bubbye Rapunzel

#BPD #Bpdrecovery #bpdawareness

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BPD Positives

Contrary to popular (and mostly wrong) belief, there are positive attributes to having BPD. Of course it doesn't negate how miserable and destructive this disorder is to our everyday life, but it does shine what little light there is on our personalities 🥴 If you couldn't tell, I have a grim outlook on everything, but I'm at least trying!⁠

For one, people with BPD tend to be very creative and expressive through art. I'm not sure what exactly the correlation is, but we do tend to have a community of artists amongst our crowd!⁠

Which then is really no surprise with how insightful we are, having resume-quality experience with emotional turmoil, manic euphoria, and overwhelming numbness. And because we endure this emotional rollercoaster 24/7, we understand some of the deepest and most painful situations and emotions. ⁠

We have our lows, and then we have our lowest lows. But continuing with the black-and-white trend of our disorder, that also means we have our highs and highest highs! We love unconditionally, with the purest love that could almost out-beat a mother's. Almost.⁠

And it all goes to say, with the daily shitstorm we fight off every minute, from the criticisms, biases, perfect imperfections, and the fact that our own brains are literally try to kill us, we are probably one of the strongest group of people in the world. I said what I said ❤️⁠

#bpdpositives #bpdawareness #Borderline #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorderawareness #borderlinepersonality #borderlinerecovery #Bpdfeels #bpdlife #Bpdstruggles #Bpdrecovery #bpdthings #bpdwarrior #Bpdsupport #MentalHealthAwareness #MentalHealth #mentalhealthmatters #thebpdproject #thebpdp

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BPD Criteria

It's my favorite time of my life - mental breakdown, BPD overload! 🙃 As if losing one's job, learning that the love of your life has been cheating on you, and mourning your mom's death as if it was yesterday is a lot already, let's just add a BPD relapse into the mix!⁠

And since I'm going through a lot of rapid emotions, the usual BPD criteria, and waiting for my insurance to be approved to start @talkspace again (just wait for the post I have planned for that!) I figured I would do a re-post (more fitting to the brand now!) of the 9 criteria of BPD!⁠

Designated by the DSM-5, at least five or more of these traits must be met in order to be diagnosed with BPD, and even then most therapists or psychiatrists will take a deeper dive into each to really solidify the diagnosis - it took me a year to finally convince my therapist that I had this disorder. Then it took another 3 years to be diagnosed with Bipolar alongside it, but that's a story for another post! 😅⁠

I plan on doing a deep dive of each criteria, both the clinical and personal definitions of each, so make sure to follow and sign up for my newsletter for when this hits! By the way, I'm really really bad at sending emails - work in progress!

#bpdawareness #Borderline #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #borderlinepersonalitydisorderawareness #borderlinepersonality #borderlinerecovery #Bpdfeels #bpdlife #Bpdstruggles #Bpdrecovery #bpdthings #bpdwarrior #Bpdsupport #MentalHealthAwareness #MentalHealth #mentalhealthmatters #thebpdproject #thebpdp

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