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    Hi, I'm Megan, I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder a little over a year ago. I'm 29 years old. & I just wanted to share what I have learned about myself and my symptoms. I tend to get triggered alot by what people say and I sometimes go into a rage and then become numb, I dissociate alot more lately just because I'm so tired of feeling depressed or angry all the time so I feel numb when I dissociate with the world around me. I have major emotional mood swings and tend to have suicidal thoughts once in a while, lately I have been having skitzoeffective tendencies and I have researched and that is normal for people with personality disorders. Now I'm trying to deal with that. The best thing I do to help me is I have done a bpd workbook by Daniel fox and I have learning coping skills from that b book, a big one for me is take a break from the situation and question all the facts, Journaling and music really help me as well to calm down during mood swing episodes i get from having BPD.
    #Bpdrecovery
    #PersonalityDisorders

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    Hope It reaches you

    I hope this letter finds you well. How are you?

    I don't think I'll ever get to know, but I hope

    you are doing fine. It saddens me And to be

    honest, not a day has gone by that I haven't

    though about you. I still watch our photos

    from time to time and it still makes me

    smile, and at the same time it makes me cry.

    I will never forget you. Even if the memories

    hurt, I don't ever want to forget you. You'll

    always have a special place in my heart

    because you were and will be my 'special'

    love. We had something special. You walked

    into my life one day and you made me realize

    that you were everything that I needed and

    wanted. I thought you were the one for me,

    and I wanted to spend the rest of my life with

    you.

    You were my lover and my best friend. I

    could always count on you. We had

    everything planned out. After we get settled

    than our marriage, then married life and all.

    But somewhere along the way, we lost track

    of it. I tried to bring back the flame, but it

    ended up burning everything down.

    I'm sorry. I'd be lying if I said I don't miss you.

    Because even before we ended, I've been

    missing you for much longer than that, I

    wanted us to be together 24/7. I miss you

    leaning on my shoulder, I miss my'

    'comfy-spot'. I miss me lifting you in in terrace, ,I

    miss me starring at you in public cause i

    didn't have a care in the world. It was just

    you and me.I

    think that you did give your 100% to tolerate me.#

    You loved me in a way no one else did. You

    became a part of me. I grew in the love that

    you gave me, and I'll forever be thankful.

    You are the love of my life. Always will be.

    But love doesn't conquer all, and the reality

    is, not everyone gets to hold on to the love of

    their lives. But this doesn't mean that l'm

    giving up on the possibility of us being

    together again. If we're meant for each other,

    we'll find our way back to each other.

    I had to let go trying because you were no

    longer happy seeing me. I was continuously

    suffocating and hurting you. I didn't really

    have a choice. The tears had to end, and I

    didn't want to get to the point where we start

    hating each other. Although you probably

    hate me now, I'm still hoping that someday

    you'll learn to forgive me. I'm hoping that

    you'll understand why we became to be like

    this and you want to give it a go again.

    Nevertheless, your significance in my life will

    never change. I love you enough that I would

    still want you in my life even if I'm no longer

    your reason to be happy. I thought you would,

    too. Thank you for the memories, the good

    and the bad, and I'll forever cherish them till

    the day I leave this world. I was lucky to have

    met you. After all, not everyone gets to meet

    their love of the lives, and I know in my heart

    and mind, that you were mine. I'm sorry for

    the times I have hurt you and made you cry. I

    really am.

    Bubbye Rapunzel

    #BPD #Bpdrecovery #bpdawareness

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    How to deal with a set back to your mental health

    Most of us struggle with our mental health but many won’t admit that. Some of us are farther along with our mental health recovery than others. Not a judgment just a realization and a truth.

    But what happens to you when you have what you feel is a setback in your mental health recovery?

    First of all, you have to realize that this will happen. Things like this are often three steps forward, two steps back. Just because you have a setback does not invalidate all the positive work you have done in the past, nor does it erase it. It just means you have to stop, regroup and get started again.

    Setbacks happen to all of us, even me. We’re all human. An important lesson we learn in DBT is that everyone is doing their best and must be treated accordingly. That means you need to treat yourself that way, too. So if you mess up and lash out at someone in a fit of anger, don’t beat up on yourself and think you are a bad person. You’re not. You are a person who has dropped the ball. Bend down, pick it up and get going again.

    I had an incident where I dropped my DBT ball. At my next appointment with my therapist I told her that I felt like a DBT failure. She pointed out to me the judgmental language I was using against myself. I had been so upset, I hadn’t even noticed it. This made me pause and think about what it means to have a setback.

    We are all products of our past and things happen we get triggered and it’s not always possible to use STOPP the all-important DBT distress tolerance skill. Not being able to utilize that skill will often make things worse but it’s still not the end of the world. Remember you are a work in progress. You are not perfect. You are allowed to mess up from time to time. As long as you don’t let that derail you completely you will be okay.  #BPD   #BPDWarriors   #Bpdrecovery #bpdremisison #bpdnomore

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    Is chronic suicidal really a symptom of BPD?

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