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Surviving Mother’s Day

Today, I’m going to send my mom the briefest of texts: “Happy Mother’s Day, Mom. I love you.”

She isn’t going to respond.

The reason is very complicated. Suffice it to say that my parents are 88, and sorting through the facts of an abusive act by one of their children is beyond them at this stage of their lives. They’d rather avoid the whole thing, and to blame the victim.

There is great irony in this stance. When my mom was seven, her ten-year-old sister stayed home from school one day with a cold. She died that day. My mom wasn’t allowed to attend her funeral. Her father made it a rule that no one could even say her name. It wasn’t until my mom was 25 that she learned that her sister was born with a brain tumor.

As a result of this dysfunction, my mom went overboard in personal honesty with us. I happily exploited her openness to absurd lengths. I sat in the kitchen with her as she worked, “interviewing” her with inappropriate questions that she always answered. Will you rate the four of us kids by looks? (I came in second). Which one of us would you grieve the most if we died? (One of my twin brothers, because “he needs me most”). Were you and Dad virgins when you married? (Mom: yes, Dad: no). She never told me I was out of bounds, even when I clearly was.

I wore the shirt in the photo every day for I’m not sure how long when I was three. I asked her once why she let me wear it so often. She responded, “You have so little control over things at that age. I couldn’t see any harm in it.” She was amazingly intuitive as a mom, following her own instincts instead of the prevailing cultural norms of the time. We went barefoot instead of wearing the recommended stiff white shoes. She didn’t buy a playpen so that we could roam freely. In my baby book is an essay about how children are cherished guests of their parents, not belongings.

My mom didn’t have the same instincts for raising teens, though. And she declared that she wouldn’t suffer any Empty Nest Syndrome. She was happy when we moved out, and she detached emotionally from us. I started a career and family without having her once ask how I was doing. I have grown kids now, and I can’t imagine treating our bond so carelessly.

Yet. She saved my shirt. And blessedly, the shirt survived our house fire. When I look at it, I see the woman I adore, the one so in tune with my feelings, who would answer my ridiculous questions. I can still feed off her warmth, her gentleness, the way her stomach rose and fell as she breathed more deeply than anyone I’ve ever known. For me, a child with anxiety that was off the charts, her quiet peace was an oasis for my troubled soul.

So today, I will celebrate my mom without her participation or recognition. I will let go of what she won’t give me, and be glad for what she did. I’ll never stop being a concerned, involved mom to my own kids. Most of all, I won’t underestimate those precious early days of tender connection.

Happy Mother’s Day, Mom. I love you.

#Bipolar #Depression #GAD #OCD #PTSD

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Worried and over thinking about friends and family. Part 2. #MentalHealth #TheMighty

Bear with me. 🫂💞

5. One of my girlfriends was raped last February and is doing fine considering all this. She is getting help in all the right places and reported the man to the Police and all that. Sadly she was sexally assulted at least once when she was younger. She has a big heart and hopefully will be stronger than ever.
6. Another of my girlfriends was diagnosed with a brain tumor and will get a scan in April. The doctors will then decide what will be best to do. She has mental health problems and several physical health problems too, didn't need one more. Hopefully she will be alright.
7. Recently I heard that one of my cousin, who has both alcohol and drug problems, walked out from her husband and their 3 daughters age 10 and younger. She has moved in with one of her girlfriends that has the same problems as her. This cousin has 2 University degrees and is so bright. She has been dealing with addictions since she was 15, is now nearing 40. Has many treatments under her belt but some how hasn't still got sober
for the long run.
8. One of my girlfriends who I have known for 25 years has schoprhenia. She had her first psyhocsis 2 years ago, since then been much more sick and so on. All last year we didn't meet, we were not up to it in turns, met in 2023 last time. We will try to meet in April.

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is Shawnna. I'm here because in March of 2024 I had a brain bleed and was diagnosed with a brain tumor. A few months later I had brain surgery and it has been rough. My tumor is on my medulla and now is spreading to my pons, sadly the news gets worse and worse. Sadly there is nothing more the doctors can do, and I fear for my future and I just need help. I feel like I’m watching my life fade away and it’s a hard thing to watch as a 22 year old… I have never been in love, I desperately want children, I wanna finish my nursing degree, and I wanna keep working in the talent industry, but now I feel like I’m losing everything day by day.

#MightyTogether #BrainCancer #MentalHealth #Suicide

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Hello group. I just found the mighty. I am a brain tumor survivor if 2 yrs. I was sick a long time before they found the true cause of my health issues. They had misdiagnosed me and was treating it as bipolar without success. There's alot to my story. Now 2 yrs after surgery im still struggling to accept what my life is now, and let go of what I thought it would be.

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Ranting a little # chronic illness #BrainTumor #Microadenoma #rant

I'm struggling a lot with my neuro health right now. I was diagnosed in January with a 5mm pituitary microadenoma. For those struggling to imagine this, take a kidney bean, and place the top of a pencil eraser on it. That's the size of my tiny, noncancerous tumor. What nobody seems to understand is that, no matter how un-cancerous it is, the dang thing is still there. I have a mass in my brain. It doesn't help me to hear "Oh it could be worse, at least its not [insert cancer type name here.]" I want people in my life besides my boyfriend to acknowledge that I do in fact have a tumor, and that its okay to be scared of it. I just wish I could tell them without them interrupting me. Oh well.
Thanks for reading.

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Ranting a little # chronic illness #BrainTumor #Microadenoma #rant

I'm struggling a lot with my neuro health right now. I was diagnosed in January with a 5mm pituitary microadenoma. For those struggling to imagine this, take a kidney bean, and place the top of a pencil eraser on it. That's the size of my tiny, noncancerous tumor. What nobody seems to understand is that, no matter how un-cancerous it is, the dang thing is still there. I have a mass in my brain. It doesn't help me to hear "Oh it could be worse, at least its not [insert cancer type name here.]" I want people in my life besides my boyfriend to acknowledge that I do in fact have a tumor, and that its okay to be scared of it. I just wish I could tell them without them interrupting me. Oh well.
Thanks for reading.

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is FlowerGirl19. I'm here because
I’m a single parent with 20-something children with disabilities. Looking for others who are on this journey of helping their adult children lead meaningful and productive lives. Are you here, too?
#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #BrainTumor #CognitiveDisorders

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I'm new here!

Hi, my name is FlowerGirl19. I'm here because
I’m a single parent with 20-something children with disabilities. Looking for others who are on this journey of helping their adult children lead meaningful and productive lives. Are you here, too?
#MightyTogether #Anxiety #Depression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #PTSD #BrainTumor #CognitiveDisorders

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Scared to death!

I just found out yesterday that I have a brain tumor.. I am scared. Waiting now for MRI and more CT scans. Has anybody had any experience with this? I am trying to NOT panic..but it's hard.

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‘Just’

Well, I finally gave in and had a brain MRI. Took a lot because I’m claustrophobic and I knew the stress of having it done would throw me into another flare. Numbness, issues speaking, dizziness, weakness, etc. made my dr think MS or something neurological. Results came back today and the drs response matched my husbands.
‘It’s JUST Lupus
What an impact that statement had on me. Actually made me breakdown and cry. I’m thankful it wasn’t MS, a brain tumor, Parkinson’s, or anything like that but at the same time I’m feeling like those around me have become so used to the Lupus diagnosis that they’ve forgotten how much it impacts life.
Maybe I’ve forgotten too.
It’s not JUST Lupus.

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