Frustration in choppy waters
After an abusive upbringing and a particularly abusive & manipulative relationship I’ve semi-recently been diagnosed with cPTSD.
In the last few weeks my long term GP has moved out of my area and so I am now in the search for a new GP.
This has been immensely frustrating with my cPTSD as I find it extremely hard to trust people and feel like I’m getting judged by everyone. However, I may have narrowed it down to 2 choices.
My schema therapist has been keeping me stable and I’m finding schema therapy extremely fascinating and powerful after a number of years in CBT/DBT/ACT therapies, it is quite different to anything I’ve ever done and while I can’t explain how it works, it is clear that this therapy is the most powerful work I’ve ever undertaken.
The final issue that is causing severe issues is chronic back pain due to scoliosis and TMJ pain which has only just been diagnosed but I’ve already been told that Panadol and Celebrex are all they can give me for the pain. This is highly frustrating and discouraging. I am finding relief from dōterra oils and their ice blue rub but need more relief than what I’m. currently getting.
Going to request a referral to the pain clinic and try and get some other pain relief to help with the pain, I want to try to avoid narcotics at all costs but if I need to go on them I will but will be insisting the dosage is kept low. I want to train as a psychologist and need my brain clear. Not to mention being intoxicated will inhibit my gym training and weight loss efforts.
I think the most frustrating thing about all this is being looked at sideways as thought I’m a drug seeker as soon as I mention pain. Considering I already don’t trust people this is the exact opposite of helpful.
Sorry, long post, just needed to get that off my chest.