The Loop Keeps Rolling!
I can't stop my mind from going backwards and replaying my life when I was abused by my Narcissistic Mother! Talk about C-PTSD!! Then I replay the abuse from my ex! I have no good memories! I don't remember anything good not until I met my second husband and my mother disowned me when I was 34. Oh boy did I lose it! She took away my father and sister as well. She wanted to destroy me and I never understood why she hated me so much. When covid started I looked up mother's who disown adult daughters. I hit on daughters of narcissistic mothers!!! I never knew! I got into therapy recently and I'm glad I did, but right now I'm just recalling my childhood and damn, its so painful! The anxiety makes me feel like I'm having a heart attack! And my husband has to wake me up because I'm screaming in my sleep and waking up soaked in sweat! I have no idea what I'm dreaming about.. I hope I can remember a dream or nightmare soon!! Good luck to us all! May we heal #mighty together #CPTSD #Nightmares #Anxiety #Depression #clinical DEPRESSION