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90% Disabled Veteran here. I am expressing my frustration with my new physician at the veterans administration . I have had multiple chronic conditions for years to include Fibromyalgia and CFS for 10 years and chronic SI joint pain for 13 years. Yesterday I decided to request a parking permit (it’s time) I sent it to my physician that has acces to my 14 year long medical record so she could sign off and I could send it to DMV for approval. My primary care sent me a triggering email and it was real simple it said the following : “Based on what I am seeing that you marked and the chart I am confused. What is your condition that warrants this placard? “ ummmmmmmmmmmm what???? Is she serious 🧐 #deepbreaths Yvonne deeeeeep breaths.

Thanks for everyone that continues to post. I love reading. Keeps my mind off of myself for a dew minutes. #Healing #ThankYou #gratefulforyou #prespective

Came across an old and familiar trigger today: unwanted texts. There was someone who was not nice to me and would taunt me via text message. I was the boss (not the big boss) and bosses have their employees’ numbers right? Agreed.
Whenever that person would send me a text my heart stopped beating and I couldn’t breathe. The anticipation of what was in the text was nothing short of angst and fear. Was that person texting to call out sick? Or was that person texting to torture me? I never knew. Why? That’s another story.
So at my new job, there was an employee who recently left and not on good terms. I got a text from the old employee about his paycheck (I am a bookkeeper). My mind was racing with what someone could possibly want (he already had his last check). I am not the boss in my current job. Now I have no reason to fear this employee but the sight of a text from someone that I did not want texting me just sent me downwards. Man, I didn’t realize how hard this story would be to write. Way quicker to talk. Anyway, I am jumpy and I cried a bit. I am embarrassed and I feel like a complete amateur. I thought I had moved past that moment in my life with that not nice person. But it all came back. I feel alone. I feel like a failure. Like I have failed at coping skills. #frustrating #Anxiety #deepbreaths

#just #Anxiety  #Depression #BipolarDisorder #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #DBT #DialecticalBehaviorTherapy #Mindfulness #Yoga
Think of this as the universe sending you a little reminder to do a body scan. What is hurting? #imagine yourself sending healing energy, love, and comfort to this space in your body. Take 2-5 #deepbreaths and visualize yourself sending healing energy to these parts of us that need it so much. #Love #lovingkindness